October 5, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 6-9)

Submitted by Joyce L. from Gracepoint Austin Church

2 Corinthians 6:3-10 (ESV)

We put no obstacle in anyone’s way, so that no fault may be found with our ministry, but as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: by great endurance, in afflictions, hardships, calamities, beatings, imprisonments, riots, labors, sleepless nights, hunger; by purity, knowledge, patience, kindness, the Holy Spirit, genuine love; by truthful speech, and the power of God; with the weapons of righteousness for the right hand and for the left; through honor and dishonor, through slander and praise. We are treated as impostors, and yet are true; as unknown, and yet well known; as dying, and behold, we live; as punished, and yet not killed; 10 as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, yet possessing everything.

2 Corinthians 6:14 (ESV)

14 Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?

2 Corinthians 7:8-10 (ESV)

For even if I made you grieve with my letter, I do not regret it—though I did regret it, for I see that that letter grieved you, though only for a while. As it is, I rejoice, not because you were grieved, but because you were grieved into repenting. For you felt a godly grief, so that you suffered no loss through us.

10 For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death.

2 Corinthians 8:9 (ESV)

For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sake he became poor, so that you by his poverty might become rich.

2 Corinthians 8:13-15 (ESV)

13 For I do not mean that others should be eased and you burdened, but that as a matter of fairness 14 your abundance at the present time should supply their need, so that their abundance may supply your need, that there may be fairness. 15 As it is written, “Whoever gathered much had nothing left over, and whoever gathered little had no lack.”

2 Corinthians 9:6-7 (ESV)

The point is this: whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully. Each one must give as he has decided in his heart, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.

The nature of the gospel; the self-giving nature of love
Through these passages, I’m reminded of how the gospel is shown and displayed not through worldly notions of power, but it is displayed through weakness, brokenness, suffering.  Through dying, through sacrifice, the power of the gospel is unleashed, new life can be born. The nature of the gospel then is love.  It’s being emptied of self, being completely other-centered, enduring through suffering for others, and through that love that others may have eternal life.  Everything about the world’s value is about self.  It’s about attaining power because of a desire to rise to the top, to feel good about oneself, to feel strong.  The gospel is completely opposite from this.  2 Corin. 8:9 says that Jesus, though he was rich, for our sake he became poor, so that we might become rich by his poverty.  Apostle Paul endured through suffering, hardships, daily dying, but through all of that, he was able to make many rich.  This is the gospel message, and that is how the gospel was transferred and passed down to me through all these years, through people who endured, sacrificed, went through hardships, difficulties, death.

The call of a minister
I am called to live out & embody this gospel in my own life.  In the way that Apostle Paul’s life is described here in 2 Corin. 6:3-10, this is also the call for me, for each disciple of Christ, for each minister.  Apostle Paul says that these are the things that commends him as a servant of Christ. One thing is his great endurance in afflictions, hardships, calamities, beatings, imprisonments, riots, labors, sleepless nights, and hunger.  A lot of these things have to do with physical endurance.  In my situation, I probably will not face things like imprisonment, riots, and beatings, but ways that I can learn to endure greatly as a minister is physically not shrinking back from hard work, pushing myself through my own laziness, pushing through my desire to slow down, going against the temptation to indulge in comfort.  As I think about our ministry here in Austin, there is so much work to be done, so many people that God has been sending and entrusting to us.  There is also the work of continuing to build up this church on the right foundation, being mindful of the soil that is being cultivated. In light of these things, I want to endure physically by pushing myself through those moments where I just want to indulge in my own thoughts, where I don’t want to think about others, to just give myself a break, to not take risks, to give into my own physical/emotional tiredness, to not want to attempt something difficult/new/challenging… and I hope that through pushing through and learning to endure these things, I can be commended as God’s servant.

Apostle Paul also talks about how he went about ministry–by purity, knowledge, patience, kindness, the Holy Spirit, genuine love. Knowledge.  I am called to have knowledge about what I am teaching to others, the word of God, being able to handle the word of truth.  The false teachers during that time spoke eloquently, were impressive, but they didn’t have knowledge regarding what they were speaking about. They were not speaking truth, they did not know the Bible, but they just said things that would bring them attention and popularity from the people.  I have always desired to have eloquence in speech, but going through the DTs in Corinthians, thinking about the contrast between the false teachers having that eloquence yet the fact of their lovelessness and selfishness, versus the life and heart of Apostle Paul, his genuine love that drove him, desire for truth, the one thing that I want to have and strive for as a minister is a knowledge of the truth.  I need to know the word of God as I minister to the people that are entrusted to me, and more and more, I see that the word of God really has all the resources for me to be able to minister.  I have experienced just simply sharing the word of God with someone, and that having such a powerful effect on another person’s life, to bring them out of the stubbornness of their own thoughts, to experience conviction of sin, to bring sense of comfort beyond any words that I personally can come up with.  I want to desire and strive to increase in my own bible knowledge, through being faithful in my daily devotions, personal bible reading, hearing messages attentively, so that I can be God’s servant that can correctly handle his word.

In addition, Apostle Paul mentions truthful speech in verse 7.  He did not hold back from speaking truth to the people that he was ministering to.  2 Corin. 7:8-10 describes the painful letter that he wrote which produced godly grief in the Corinthians, leading to repentance.  It was personally painful for him to write the harsh letter to them, the emotional labor that he had to go through to write it, and then the anxiety and worry of wondering how they would take it, if they would respond in repentance. However, he went through all of that out of love for them, out of a desire for them to experience repentance leading to salvation.  This is what I am called to do as a minister, to be a person that speaks truth into other people’s lives, regardless of the kind of response that I might receive.  I need to push through emotionally uncomfortable situations, fear of being misunderstood, take risks in my relationships with those that I am trying to raise–out of that loving heart for them to experience repentance leading to salvation, freedom from the sins that enslave them, and just having that jealous heart for them to be reconciled to Christ at whatever cost to myself.

Submitted by Bryan S. from Gracepoint Austin Church

  • The nature of the gospel

The nature of the gospel is life-giving.  It is, however, not the sort of life-giving gospel that so many people in the world today have been falsely advertised.  Sadly, many people in the world, churchgoers and Christians included, think that the gospel of salvation they have received should yield a happy, comfortable life here on this earth.  This is simply not biblical, and certainly not indicative of Apostle Pau’s life. The gospel actually ushers in greater personal suffering and hardship because of the new purpose and calling Christ followers are given.  Christ followers are called to suffer as Christ did, so that others might live.  And so the gospel contains the irony of all ironies.  That as I die, I and others live.  As I become poor, I and others become rich.  This only makes sense because the gospel gives me hope in heaven, in which all the ironies will be wrinkled out.

  • The call of a minister

One call of a minister is the call to instruct. As I think about these passages, Apostle Paul clearly instructed the Corinthians regarding specific areas of life such as marriage, and being generous with money.  Another very evident call of a minister that can be gleaned from Apostle Paul’s life is the call to suffer for God and on behalf of others.  Apostle Paul’s life was a testament of this.  He says in in 2 Corinthians 6 that as a servant of Christ he underwent afflictions, hardships, calamities, beatings, imprisonments, sleepless nights, hunger and more. Apostle Paul wasn’t a masochistic or macho minister who went through hardships merely for hardship sake.  He endured through all these so that the message of the Gospel would spread to more and more people.  He did so in order that he could faithfully represent what it meant to be that servant of God, one who endures sufferings as Christ did upon the cross for others’ salvation.

  • The self-giving nature of love

Love by its very nature is about giving of oneself, and Apostle Paul clearly gave himself to the Corinthians.  He talks about how he sent them the letter that made them grieve, and he says that he did not regret, but then he did.   Why did he have to send the letter?  It only brought him anxiety, and emotional burden?  It’s because he loved them and that meant he wasn’t going to hold onto any emotional comforts.  To this extent emotionally, Apostle Paul was self-giving of himself to the Corinthians.

This self-giving nature of love makes sense to me much more personally now as a parent.  As my daughters grow up, I want to naturally give all of myself for them in order to protect them, and provide them all they need to live full and thriving lives. I would even give my life in exchange for theirs if it ever came down to it.   This all makes perfect sense, though, because this all encompassing, self-giving posture is what love really is about.

  • Holiness

It says in chapter 6 Apostle Paul challenges the Corinthians to not be unequally yoked with unbelievers.  As those in Christ, Apostle Paul was trying to help them understand that they were now set apart, people of the light, and thus fundamentally different with a new identity in Christ.  It wouldn’t make sense for them to be tied to those of the world, allied with the people who were still in the darkness.

Holiness thus requires that clear delineation between light and darkness.  It requires that as a Christ follower, I identity those clear boundary lines in my life in which I must not be intermixed with the people in the darkness.  When it comes to how I spend my money, I need to be set apart in terms of how I allocate my money.  When it comes to how I spend my leisure time, I can’t spend it on the frivolous selfish pursuits that the people of this world spend their time on. When it comes to even topics of conversation, I need to be set apart with co-workers in terms of what I talk about. I can’t be yoked together with them, just fitting in and talking about what they talk about, doing what they do.  God has set me apart to be holy and that requires that I be set apart in all these specific areas.

  • Generosity

In 2 Corinthians 8, Apostle Paul points to the most generous person of all, Jesus Christ, who though being rich, gave up everything and became poor, so that others might reap the benefits of his generosity. Apostle Paul goes on to talk about how the Corinthians ought to supply the need of the Christians in Jerusalem, that their abundance should supply their lack.  This calling to be generous is a fundamental aspect of following Christ.  So in light of Christ’s clear example of being generous, it is clear that I am called to be generous as well with all of my life.  And it’s not just about being generous with my time and energy, but with my money.  Apostle Paul called out the Corinthians in this specific area and that is something I need to keep asking myself again and again–am I being generous with money?  As I get older, the natural temptation that I feel in my heart is to hoard money for providing for my family.  But I am reminded that God’s calling for me is to be generous, not merely conservative, with money towards fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.

  • Suffering, power, weakness

The life of a Christ follower is one in which these three seemingly unfitting words all mesh together.  Through these passages, one thing that is clear is that Apostle Paul lived a life of suffering, and that all Christians are similarly to live this kind of life for the sake of God.  He felt weakness and emotionally spent over his grief for the Corinthians and the other churches.  Even so, through these toils, he experienced the power of God (2 Corinthians 6:7) filling him, giving him the ability to endure through it all.  This is what the Christian life looks like.  It’s experiencing weakness and sufferings because of the good work of spreading the Gospel, as well as loving others with the truth.  But through it all, God the Father fills me with his power.  It is not a power of my own, as that is so limited and failing, but the power of God from heaven.

Personal Prayer

Heavenly Father, I thank you for this precious Gospel which has come to me.  I know that it was through the sacrifice and sufferings of so many that I came to know you. I pray that now as you placed me in this position, and entrusted me with the Gospel, help me to be faithful to love others generously with all of my life, so that they might live.   May I not configure my own gospel, which caters to comfort, but Lord I commit my life to you once again, to suffer and die so others might live.  In Jesus name, Amen.

October 4, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 4-5)

Bible Text           

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 (ESV) 16 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. 17 For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, 18 as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

2 Corinthians 5:1-7 (ESV) 5 For we know that if the tent that is our earthly home is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this tent we groan, longing to put on our heavenly dwelling, if indeed by putting it on we may not be found naked. For while we are still in this tent, we groan, being burdened—not that we would be unclothed, but that we would be further clothed, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who has given us the Spirit as a guarantee.  6 So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight.

2 Corinthians 5:14-15 (ESV)  14 For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; 15 and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.

2 Corinthians 5:17-21 (ESV)  17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 18 All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; 19 that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. 20 Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. 21 For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Submitted by James C. from Gracepoint Austin Church

Through the passages here, we see the things that drive and sustain Apostle Paul even as he is going through the difficulties of ministry and the suffering he faced. Even though he faced much physical suffering and emotional toil, Paul considers these earthly troubles as “light momentary affliction” as he kept his focus on the eternal things and what he would one day experience in heaven. In fact, he even describes the earthly suffering and trials things that are “preparing” for the “eternal weight of glory” and causing him to long for heaven even more. This is such a powerful perspective that helped turn hardships into opportunities to strength his faith in God and be even more heaven-minded, and from this I get a glimpse of how Paul was able to persevere even through all of his suffering. These grander themes of heaven and earth deeply colored his thinking and his response toward the events in his life and these sustained him in all his trials.

For myself, often I get too caught up just in the situations and challenges I’m facing, and I find myself merely reacting merely to the immediate consequences. Sometimes I think only in terms of what these things demand of me and how challenging life and ministry is, and I feel weary and worn out from the stress and the pressure. On one hand, there is that never-ending list of things to do and areas where I can do more or better in, as a father and husband and friend. There are also those more challenging situations like ministering to people and trying to help them move closer to God. Often it just feels like there just aren’t enough hours during the day to worry about issues or take care the things that need to be done, and this can feel so overwhelming and draining. But from these passages, I am reminded difficulties I face can really be opportunities that cause me to think more about the eternal significance of how I’m serving God and to help me to long for heaven even more. I need to be filled and strengthened by this greater hope and longing, as I connect what I do to the bigger themes of the Gospel. Though groaning and longing seem to be a position of lack, yet as I see in Paul, it helped him to look to heaven more and this filled him and it motivated him all the more to run this race in the present. This is such an encouraging prospect for me and a sharp reminder that I really need to strengthen myself through the hope of heaven and eternity as well.

The call of a minister

In 2 Corinthians 5:17, Paul says, “therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” This is the reality that has come into a Christian’s life, that our old lives have passed away and that God gives us a clean slate and a second chance at life. This is great news for me, that I get to leave behind the shame and guilt from the past and get to start over. And I used to think of my salvation mainly in terms of how it affected me–the joy and peace that I can now experience personally. While God does want me to experience these things and salvation surely does include these things, he’s intended for it to be a lot fuller than that. From these passages, we see that salvation is not merely just leaving behind a life of sin, but it is to embrace this new life as someone who has been entrusted with this message of reconciliation and this role as ambassador to reconcile people back to God.

To be new in Christ means that I now live for him, being concerned about what he is concerned about, and God is concerned about his lost and wayward children being fully reconciled to him. Sometimes we can have this wrong view that ministry is an add-on to Christian life, that there is the basic Christian life where you get saved and there is this additional thing where you go out and minister to other people. But from here, we see that it is not like that, that in fact, when God saves us from a life of sin, he also saved us into a new life of helping to reconcile others to him. When we have this kind of understanding, then we won’t have the misunderstanding that God is asking us to do something extra when he calls us to be his ambassadors, but we can know that this is what it means to be rescued from a life of living for yourself, and in fact, co-laboring with God in loving and ministering to others is in fact the way that we get to experience God’s power and love in our lives more deeply, as we see in Apostle Paul. This is something I need to be reminded of, especially in those times when ministry is challenging. I need to see that the role that God has given me is his continual work in my life to turn me away from sin and toward becoming that new creation that he had envisioned for my life.

Personal Prayer

Dear God, thank you for this precious Gospel that you have entrusted to me, that my life can take on such an eternal dimensions. Even though I’m so focused only on earthly things much of the time, you remind me through these passages that you call me to consider my life in light of eternity–both for myself and others–and to live that life of reconciling others to you. Thank you for such a privilege and I pray that even the midst of the challenges of life and ministry, that I can keep this eternal perspective and be sustained by you, so that I can persevere and even experiencing your power and filling. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Submitted by David L. from Gracepoint Austin Church

These passages tell us a lot about the nature of the gospel, which is loving sacrifice as demonstrated through the death of Jesus.  The cross reminds us that if we are in Christ, there exists the possibility of being renewed from our sins and reconciled back to the Father, made into a “new creation”.

Personally, as I look back on these past 9 years of being in college ministry I am struck by the amazing gospel message that never seems to get old because of the fact I have witnessed lives that have been radically transformed.  There have been many people with all kinds of pains and addictions, as well as emotional scars from their broken pasts that have experienced healing and a renewed sense of hope as a result of experiencing God’s forgiveness and grace.  However, if the nature of the gospel is to be lived out in loving sacrifice so that others may experience this new life, then concretely, it is the call of every Christian to bear the mark of suffering.  For myself, one criterion I typically use to easily identify whether or not I am on the right track of ministering to others, is NOT necessarily by how well I execute the tasks or even by the sheer number of people in my Life Group.  Rather, I tend to evaluate how much I have suffered and sacrificed myself (i.e., my time, money, energy) for the sake of others.  We see clear evidence of this in Apostle Paul’s life through his heartfelt letters to the Corinthians, and also through the many trials/hardships he faced throughout his ministry.

The call of every minister is to faithfully carry out the message of reconciliation that has been entrusted to them by God.  In addition, we are to be Christ’s ambassadors in this world who represent Him through our words and actions on a daily basis.  What a challenge AND a privilege it is to bear the name of Christ on his behalf.  Personally, I feel the ever-growing gravity and weight of being an ambassador for Christ given the magnitude of my sins.  I’m still very much a proud person and consistently feel the need prove myself to others in order to stroke my ego.  I still battle the sin of envy I have toward those who outshine me and I’m constantly battling my flesh that seeks comfort especially as I’ve grown older, become a father, and recognize the increasing demands of our church’s expanding ministry upon me.  I need to meditate more deeply upon verse 18 as it puts things back into perspective about God, who is the one who does all the heavy lifting in terms of reconciling me (and the world) back to himself.  The verse goes on to say that He is the one who has entrusted me with the ministry of reconciliation, implying that there is nothing I did to merit or receive this incredible gift of salvation and the entrustment of bringing the ministry of reconciliation to others.  It is my prayer and commitment to first receive God’s grace regularly through honest reflection and confession of my sins.  Only then will I be humble enough to acknowledge that it was He who reconciled me back to Him.  Secondly, I want to commit to being a good steward of this ministry of reconciliation, by giving it my all in laboring and suffering for the gospel, specifically for the people He has entrusted under my care.

The passages from today’s text also heavily reference various aspects of earth and heaven.  First, it talks about our experience in the world as being full of suffering, affliction, longing, groaning, and being burdened, either due to our own sinfulness, or perhaps due to the sins of others.  However, it then offers up a measure of hope through the “eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison” that is being prepared for us in heaven.  Growing up, I could not really comprehend verses such as these because I grew up in a very sheltered environment.  Only after I got to college did I begin to realize that there were a lot of broken people in this world as I met people who experienced a lot of pain and suffering as a result of sin.  And yet, somehow, God was able to transform these people’s lives and demonstrate His power through their weaknesses and their broken pasts; and by His mercy I have been able to witness many incredible testimonies of changed lives.  As I have reflected more and more over the years and have seen the horror of my own sinful heart, I have experienced more deeply the power of God redeeming my life and using that which was once broken, to be a source of blessing for others.  It hasn’t always been easy.  While I have found so much joy in serving God, there have been moments when I have just felt weak and limited in my ability to love people.  However, I have experienced the reality of 2 Cor. 5:5 as the power of the Spirit of God has provided me with supernatural strength to persevere and continue in the work of ministry of reconciliation.  As I grow older and see the brokenness of this world, my heart breaks as the darkness seems so pervasive.  Yet at the same time, I find myself becoming more zealous and eager to give everything I have to fulfill the Great Commission and to offer hope to those who have yet to hear the gospel.  And even though I experience failure and disappointment in this world, the joy of my salvation coupled with the knowledge of heaven, is what drives me to be faithful and not give up.

October 3, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 1-4)

Please reflect on today’s passages, and think about what they say about:

  • the nature of the gospel
  • the call of a minister
  • the self-giving nature of love
  • earth and heaven
  • holiness
  • generosity
  • suffering, power, weakness

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (ESV)

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

2 Corinthians 2:14-16 (ESV)

14 But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. 15 For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing, 16 to one a fragrance from death to death, to the other a fragrance from life to life. Who is sufficient for these things?

2 Corinthians 3:5-6 (ESV)

Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God, who has made us sufficient to be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit. For the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.

2 Corinthians 4:6-12 (ESV)

For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; 10 always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. 11 For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12 So death is at work in us, but life in you.

Submitted by Debbie F., from Gracepoint Austin Church

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (ESV)

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

What afflictions do we face?  We face affliction from brokenness and sin within, and brokenness and sin without.  Which is why the promises of these verses are so strengthening, because the self-inflicted affliction that I struggle with, God addresses over and over again with the gospel of my Father of mercies.  This is the one and only source of comfort that I can find when I’m faced with the pain and regret of my own sin and failures.  What else can I do?  Can I actually comfort myself by trying harder… just to find sin coming forth from me yet again and again? Can I fool myself into thinking I’ll find comfort in “creature comforts,” like sleeping it off, distracting myself, evading the issues by busying myself with other things, and thereby allowing the sin to continue to rot my soul and conscience?  The one and only comfort I can find is in my God of mercy, my God who sent me my Lord Jesus Christ, to give me true rest and comfort, through acknowledgement of the truth of my sin, through the forgiveness of my sin, through calling me a faithful daughter of righteousness (though I am not, I’m called to trust Him at His word), and through restoration as His heir, just as the Father restored the prodigal to full sonship and ownership of His household.

The comfort of God’s mercy is beyond any comfort to be found anywhere else in the world.  There is no true comfort apart from God’s mercy upon me, the sinner.  And it is this amazing gospel that I desire so much to pass on, and which God calls me to pass on to others afflicted with guilt and regret over their failures.  Even today, as I met with someone who’s struggling over the guilt of her sin, hopeless in herself, fearful of what the future holds in light of her own brokenness, all I could do was share with her how I’ve heard, believed in, and experienced the truth of God’s promises, like that of Luke 15, and how I just need to believe Him at His word, that He calls me “faithful daughter,” and “minister of reconciliation.”  And over the years, the comfort I’ve come to experience is completely based on His grace and mercy.

This is the nature of the gospel, and my call as a minister.  I’ve received this amazing gospel of reconciliation of the sinner to God, and have experienced the full comfort of God’s forgiveness and restoration, and I desire so much for others to know this gospel.  How can I, as a minister, not desire that for those whom I minister to.  Apostle Paul, as he shares these words to the ever-so-faulty Corinthian church, he truly means every word of it.  Because he knows that God had mercy upon himself, a self-described “chief of sinners,” it’s out of the overflow of comfort, thanksgiving, humility before this amazing gospel that he shares these heart-felt words to the Corinthians.  As I experience this in greater measures, as each year passes, I want so much to pass this on to the next, for people to know my Father of mercy and God of all comfort.

2 Corinthians 2:14-16 (ESV)

14 But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. 15 For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing, 16 to one a fragrance from death to death, to the other a fragrance from life to life. Who is sufficient for these things?

What’s clear is that the Christian must affect the people around her.  A Christian who is a non-factor to the people around her is clearly not understanding some very basics about the gospel for even herself.

As a follower of Christ, my life needs to spread the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere.  When people encounter a relationship with me, they need to be affected by Christ.  They need to get to know Christ a little more. They need to understand His heart, experience His love and mercy, see what He values and what He despises, grasp truth and reality a little deeper.  And their reaction to my life will be very telling, about my life.  Do they find themselves attracted to the aroma of Christ in my life, drawn to Christ himself, and are brought a step closer to being saved, or do they find themselves recognizing that they are perishing under the truth of God that they’ve consciously been rejecting?

Indeed, who is sufficient to represent Christ and give off His aroma.  I’m a sinner, a broken vessel, a jar of clay with my own long list of sin and failure.  And yet, God entrusts the “display” of Christ to my life.  This is God’s call for me, as a minister.

But I’m not called to do this on my own, by my own merits, by my own efforts.  Christ leads me in this procession, He’s demonstrated to me what a life of obedience is, which from the moment of his birth was a life of selfless love and sacrifice.  I need only to follow in His steps, I don’t need to make up my own ideas about it.  Christ has also taken me captive, He owns me, and I need simply do as He directs me in His word.

2 Corinthians 3:5-6 (ESV)

Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God, who has made us sufficient to be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit. For the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.

Again, who is sufficient for such a task, to be one to spread the fragrance of the knowledge of Christ everywhere?  No one.  I am completely insufficient… let alone the fact that I lack a lot of basic competence, I’m an utter sinner, and whatever competence I might even display is riddled with my selfishness and ego.  How is it that God calls anyone who is a sinner to be ministers of Christ?  Yet that is what God has chosen to do.  Is He foolish?  No, He knows exactly what He’s doing, and it’s because He knows what He can do through broken vessels.  I have nothing whatsoever to claim for myself… I can’t even claim my “being good with newcomers” for myself, because I know that were it not for Christ, my personality is filled with laziness, selfishness, lovelessness… it’s only because of the cross that I have any love for others at all.  I can’t claim my grasp on apologetics and being able to address questions for myself, because all that I know, I’ve received from others, who ultimately received their depth of insight from God.  I can’t claim anything in my ministry as my own, because ALL that I have is from God.  Who gave man his mouth?  Who gave man his mind?  Who gave man his LIFE?  Who gave man his purpose?  Praise be to God that He calls me, a sinner, a minister of His covenant.  That is truly a miracle.

2 Corinthians 4:6-12 (ESV)

For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; 10 always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. 11 For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12 So death is at work in us, but life in you.

The promises of this passage becomes more and more and more real to me, as I see how broken I am.  One affliction that I’ve had to struggle with the most is regret from failures in the past, when I was trying to minister to people, but I was so loveless, heartless, self-focused, critical/judgmental, arrogant, a much bigger burden than a help to my leaders. That period has haunted me over the years, and every time I fail (in these exact same areas), I’m brought back to this time.

But God said, “Debbie, let light shine out of the darkness of your life.”  He says that my being a minister now is not because I’ve proven myself to be a good minister.  It’s not because I’m less of a sinner than I was 10-15 years ago.  It’s only because of the surpassing power belongs to God and not to me, in that He has given me the gospel.  Not simply that he has given me the gospel to give to others, but he has given ME the gospel.  He’s forgiven me time and again, and continues to do so, with no emptying of his abundance of grace and mercy upon me, and keeps on restoring me as His daughter and minister.

So I find this amazing fact that Christ’s death is constantly at work in me, and it’s only because of this that I can bring any sort of life in others. Because I’m always carrying the death of Jesus in me, I’ve find life on a regular basis in His resurrection, and His resurrection promise for me, and through that, my life gives hope to others as they see Christ at work in me.

With this as the basis of absolutely everything I do as a minister, I’ve experienced the rest of these verses, time and again, and in increasing measure.  My own sins don’t crush me, my own sins don’t leave me in despair, Satan persecutes me over my sin but I know that I’m not forsaken by God, I can be daily rebuked (within or without) but because of the cross, I’m not destroyed and instead I find new mercy and new life.

With regards to ministry, there are so many ways that those I minister to fill my heart with affliction and perplexity and pain, but I simply can’t give up because I already know how God’s surpassing power has worked in me, and I know for a fact that if God can forgive me and save me, then He can forgive and save anyone.  Even the affliction to my body that I’ve been experiencing by my frequent illnesses, though Satan tempts me to despair (and I might teeter at the edge at times), I cannot despair because I know, as Job proclaimed, I know that my Redeemer lives, and after my skin has been thus destroyed, yet in my flesh I shall see God.  God has displayed his surpassing power to me so many times, I cannot despair.

I thank and praise God for the gospel that has become so real to me, through verses like these, as it really feeds me with all I need to pass on the good news to others.

Submitted by Sam K., from Gracepoint Austin Church

2 Corinthians 3:5-6 (ESV)

Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God, who has made us sufficient to be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit. For the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.

2 Corinthians 4:6-12 (ESV)

For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; 10 always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. 11 For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12 So death is at work in us, but life in you.

One thing that echoes throughout these passages is how God’s power and glory is displayed through our own weakness and suffering.  It was a reminder again that God uses the brokenness of our past, the sins that we have struggled with, and the circumstances that we have faced and uses those moments in our lives for a greater purpose.  That purpose is to bless and minister to the people around us through the same struggles that we have gone through.  God indeed uses our broken past to display his glory and power so that others can experience his forgiveness, healing, mercy, and the ministry reconciliation.  As I think about how God uses me for this greater purpose, it’s a startling and amazing reality that God has for my life.  On the other side of the coin, I think about my own brokenness, immaturity, the people that I have hurt in the passed through my actions and words, the sins that I have committed, and I can feel the weight of my inadequacy and wonder how God can use someone like me when certainly there are other people more adequate and experienced for the task.  It’s because that God sees me more that what I may be and that God wants to display his power and glory through me.  It’s by taking the lowest of lows like myself so that the something higher which is God’s salvation work and the transformation of lives can be displayed.

How is it possible that God can use me for his good work?  The 4 verses talk about how “we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction” (2 Corinthians 1:4), “spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere,” (2 Corinthians 2:14), “minsters of a new covenant,” (2 Corinthians 3:6), and “…the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our moral flesh.” (2 Corinthains 4:12).  These passages talks about being able to minister to other people, but what proceeds is that these 4 verse talk about “who comforts us in all our affliction, so that…” (2 Corinthians 1:4).  It is the fact that God has first comforted us through our circumstances and issues so that we can comfort those who struggle with the same issues and circumstances.  “…who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession.” (2 Corinthians 2:14).  It is the fact that I have been defeated by Christ and I am able now God’s prisoner and not the prisoner of my sins that I can spread the fragrance of the knowledge of Him.  “…our sufficiency is from God, who has made us sufficient” (2 Corinthians 3:6).  God makes us sufficient when we feel insufficient and when we recognize that we are weak.  “For we who live are always given over to death…” (2 Corinthians 4:11).  It is the fact that I have been constantly put to death from my own sins and issues so that the knowledge of Jesus may be manifested in our mortal bodies.  Therefore, for God’s power and glory to be displayed in me is only possible when I give God total spiritual authority to speak into my life.  What does it mean to give God spiritual authority?  It means to struggle over my sins and issues and through that, recognize my own inadequacy, weakness, and suffering and allow God to transform my life so that I can take what I experienced to love and minister those around me and in that regard experience the transforming power of someone’s life.

How does this apply to me?  As I get older and being on church plant, I have had to deal with more of immaturity and my sins and the shame of it and what consequences it has on God, me, the people that I am trying to love, church, and ministry.  He’s had to deal with my hiddenness and my sins of pride, envy, and desire for emotional and physical comfort.  And in light of dealing with my sins, it causes me to think and fall into despair of what authority do I have in being a person involved with ministry?  But I as I look back at those times of struggling and repenting over my sins and dealing with my immaturity, I see that the sins and immaturity that I have had to deal with is not in vain.  It is not in vain because it’s something God uses to transform lives and people’s hearts from the inside out.  It is for his glory and power.  It’s so that I can come to repentance, be shaped, and restored so that I can minister to others.  I am thankful to God for those times of struggling and where I recognized my own weakness as I faced the horror of my sins and that I can come to God for forgiveness.  God used those momentary troubles so that I could come to repentance and that through that experience, I can fully love the people around me with the hope and desire that they would experience and find rest in God’s mercy and grace.  It is a reminder again that those times of weakness and suffering are a good thing because God uses it for something more powerful and life changing.  A life of confession and struggling with my own sins is something that I need to constantly do because the more I deal with my own sins and issues then the more God makes me sufficient and adequate to comfort those around me.

Personal Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for being the God of comfort, making me your prisoner as you lead me in a triumphal procession, making me sufficient as a minister, and death being at work in me so that there may be life in others.  Thank you for this reminder again that you are the one that gives strength and makes it possible for me to love others and that the power of transformed lives is possible even through my own brokenness and sins.  Lord, as I continue to love and minister to others, I pray that I would continue to come to you in honest confession and constantly struggle and anguish over the my own sins of pride, envy, and emotional and physical comfort so that through repentance and restoration over my own issues that I can take those experiences to love and comfort those around me and they would in part experience your forgiveness, mercy, and grace.  Amen.

Submitted by Lillian K., from Gracepoint Austin Church

The nature of the gospel is that it will cause reversals in what is broken and fallen about mankind, and instead gives sinners a new life in Christ. Where sin demanded death as penalty, the gospel now reverses the sinner’s fate, and grants a victorious life over sin. In 2 Corinthians 2:14-16, this is shown through the victory that is brought in by the gospel, as indicated by the triumphal procession that Christ is now leading us in. Because of the gospel, what Christ has done on the cross in triumphing over death and redeeming mankind from their sin, we are no longer subject to the punishment of death ourselves. When we were once marked out for having to bear the consequences of our own sin, and headed towards death, now because of Christ, we are no longer marching towards death, but marching towards victory because of the new life that we have in Christ. Our fate has been reversed, and through our lives, rather than exuding the stench of our own sin, we are now spreading the fragrance of the knowledge of Christ. This means that our sins have been forgiven and cleansed, and that we are no longer under the power of sin, but rather we are given a new lease on life, where the punishment of our sin no longer looms over us. Instead, we can even demonstrate to a watching world the victorious life we have now that we know Christ, have been forgiven for our sin, and continue in our relationship with Him.

In 2 Corinthians 4:6-12, there is also the reversal of darkness into light, where God speaks, and makes “light shine out of darkness.” This is the God who created the heavens and the earth, who created light when all there was in the beginning of creation was just darkness. There is nothing about darkness that can bring forth light from itself because they are complete opposites, and the presence of one removes the presence of the other. Therefore, since sin causes darkness in our hearts, there is nothing within us that could ever bring forth light. However, because God Himself is light in that He is pure holiness, truth, and love, when He “has shone in our hearts,” then the darkness of our hearts can now contain the “light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.” Therefore, what now fills our hearts is this light, rather than the darkness of our sin and shame. We now possess the knowledge of God through Christ, and therefore our hearts will no longer be darkened by our sin.

I have personally experienced these reversals in my life because of the gospel. Since the majority of my life growing up, I was pretty unaware of how my actions affected others, it wasn’t until I first started to live as a Christian, did I become more aware of how clueless, hypocritical and blind I was to myself. There were many moments where my sin had to be painfully and humiliatingly exposed. But it was through those moments when my sin became so painfully real to me, that I understood the gravity of it, and how much I had been in darkness because of it. I didn’t realize how much my self-centeredness, my pride and ego, had hurt people around me, how much it was hindering me from maturing as a Christian and as a person overall. And ultimately, how much my sin had really grieved God and kept me from a relationship with Him. This process of repentance over my sin, as difficult and humbling as it was, I see how it has become the “light of the knowledge of the glory of God” because through these dark times of repenting, I got to experience much more intimately who God was; that He is holy, merciful, and that He deserves my utmost devotion and that it is only out of His grace that I get to be a part of His ministry. I see how God is using this knowledge of Him to become that fragrance of Christ for those around me as I have opportunities through ministry to lead other broken sinners down that same sweet path of confession and repentance.

As I become older and experience more of ministry and am seeing how true God’s words are, I recognize that this gospel is the only worthy thing that I really have to offer anyone. To persuade someone that their greatest problem is their sin, and then guiding them through the steps of confession and repentance so that they can experience the reversals that the gospel brings, this is the greatest blessing of the gospel. And I see how this gospel has created this reversal in my life as before I was once subject to the punishment of sin, I am now leading others down that same triumphal procession of victory over sin because of Christ.

October 2, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 13)

Submitted by Sunny K., from Gracepoint Austin Church

2 Corinthians 13:7-9

  • Given the words of judgment in vv. 1-4, what is surprising about Apostle Paul’s prayers for the Corinthians? 

In light of his earlier words of judgment in Ch. 13, I am continually struck by Paul’s unrelenting hopefulness for this church to be restored into proper standing before God, in their relationship with Paul and with each other. He never gives up having hope for them. That is what is so surprising about his prayer. Why does he not give up? Because he knows they have genuinely encountered the Gospel and have experienced salvation. Even as Paul urges them to not do wrong, but do what is right before the sight of God and to respond to the truth that has been set before them, you don’t get the sense that he holds a grudge against them for their offensive reactions, hurtful ways of questioning his credibility and basic love for them. He keeps the focus on the greater issue, which is their restoration.

I am so challenged by this, especially as a leader. Paul never gave up on this church, even though they had given him so many reasons to. His response was not “I’ve had enough of…,” but rather “that he most gladly spends and is spent for their souls” (12:15). What a heart of a true leader of the Gospel! I know I’m not there yet to express this kind of sentiment all the time in ministry, but I really desire to one day. Paul was able to stay clear of the non-essential issues with this church and not become sidetracked by all the drama their reactions could’ve created, but because his aim was for their restoration, it was clear to him what needed to be done. He needed to have pointed out their sin, in the harsh way that he did. He needed to ensure that they genuinely repented and felt godly grief and not worldly sorrow. He needed to have followed up to make sure they followed through on their offering amount as they had intended. He needed to correct and cut through all their worldly and flabby thinking when it came to how they saw what were proper credentials for an apostle. He needed to warn them to not place such high value in mystical experiences as these super apostles were boasting of. He trusted in the power of the truth and sought to help them through these various areas, so they could be restored before God, with him and others in the church. This is the kind of thorough work I as a leader to regularly engage in. I think it really comes down to what is my ultimate aim in ministry. If it’s for people’s restoration and reconciliation before God and others, then, it becomes pretty clear what I need to do. However, if my aim is something else, something much less like being well-liked or even popular with others, then, I won’t be doing the kind of ministry Paul did.

  • What does v. 8 reveal about what is necessary for the Corinthians to be restored?

What this reveals about what was necessary for the Corinthians to do in order to be restored was that they needed to have accepted the truth. They needed to have first acknowledged all that Paul corrected them about was accurate, justifiable and that they were in full agreement. Without that happening first, restoration is impossible. Why can’t restoration happen apart from the accepting of truth? Because if you aren’t even in agreement over what caused that rift in your relationship with God or others to begin with, then, there’s no basis on which to restore. No matter how much the Corinthians may have wished to be restored to God and Paul, it would’ve been impossible until they were willing to admit the ways they had sinned.

I’ve seen this to be true often in ministry. I’ve met people who seem to genuinely desire to start a relationship with God because they recognize that something is missing from their life. But as soon as I begin to talk about sin and help them reflect over ways they could’ve sinned against God, their defenses are up and they are no longer willing to even go down that path. There’s a refusal to accept the truth of what the bible considers as sin and an unwillingness to try and identify that in their life. I tell them that unless they are willing to accept their truthful condition as laid out in the Bible, then, no matter how much they wish to have a rel. with God, it’s impossible because there’s a fundamental disconnect in what God sees as the problem and what we see as the problem in our broken relationship with Him.

Of whom can I say that I am glad to be weak so they can be strong?

I am glad to be weak for those in my ministry so that they can be strong, as well as in my relationship with my kids and husband. I think only in my later years as a minister and as an adult, did I come to value and not be afraid to be weak and to show my weaknesses before others. When I was younger, I thought to be strong meant being self-sufficient, all-knowing, competent, etc. But the problem was I wasn’t and I realized the longer I fought against that reality, the more miserable I was in my relationship with God and with others. Trying to be a good minister, a good wife, mother, etc. was no longer a joy, but became a burden because I tried so hard to appear strong, “with it”, able, self-reliant, etc. but deep down inside, I knew that I wasn’t and so insufficient for the tasks before me. Finally, God broke through my stubbornness and helped me to see how I had it all wrong. My sufficiency, my competence, my strength and abilities, were never supposed to come from me because I am and will always be a poor and insufficient individual. But when I began to draw my strength from who God was and my standing before Him in light of the cross, as a redeemed broken sinner who was so loved by Him, then, life, relationships, ministry, and just plain living became a joy. Hence, when I didn’t know something or felt weak in a situation, it was a lot easier to admit before others because there was no longer a need to engage in face-saving tactics because the truth was out (as it had been all that time before, but I was just unaware of it), that I’m here engaging in His redemptive work by His grace and what a privilege and honor it’s been. So, I will all the more gladly boast about my weakness and not be afraid to admit that truth so, that hopefully, as I try and obey God even in the midst of this reality, others can become strong.

2 Corinthians 13:10

  • How did Apostle Paul view his authority?

Apostle Paul viewed his authority as something that was given to him by God. He understood that it came from God and that if needed, he would be severe if he had to. He understood that the authority given to us by God as spiritual leaders was to build up the church, to invest in the church, to really be spent for those in the church, so that their faith can be built on a solid foundation, and experience the fruitfulness of living “in Christ.” It’s tragic to see how this perspective has gotten lost in some parts of Christendom, where a person’s personal ambition and agenda takes center stage rather than their spiritual obligation to the building up of their churches.

  • When would a spiritual leader’s “severe…use of…authority” be appropriate?

A spiritual leader’s severe use of authority would be appropriate in situations where church members were being rebellious and unrepentant over their sins and their was a failure to sufficiently acknowledge what they’ve done before God and its effect on others. That God-given authority to respond in such a way goes in line with “building up the church” because in order for that to happen, there has to be an agreement over what happened in their relationship with God or with others. But if there is a continual refusal to agree over the facts of how they’ve sinned, and understand it’s gravity and that member is a Christian, then, a severe use of authority is appropriate. When I think back on my own journey, I know that had my own leaders not responded to my sins with sufficient severity, I would not have repented and understood the far-reaching consequences of my sin. Why? Because sin can blind us to such an extent that we can fool ourselves that we are in the right, when we know deep down inside we are in the wrong. I know in the past, I didn’t understand the full scope of how offensive my sin was before God and others, and it took someone’s strong reaction to jolt me out of that locked position and perspective my sinful nature took me down at times. I am truly grateful for those people who took such risks and exercised their God-given authority to deal with me severely. For if they hadn’t, then, I don’t know where I would be and definitely I would be in no position to build others or anyone up for that matter.

Submitted by James K., from Gracepoint Austin Church

2 Corinthians 13:7-9

·         Given the words of judgment in vv. 1-4, what is surprising about Apostle Paul’s prayers for the Corinthians? 

Apostle Paul had such a grand vision and parental heart for the Corinthians. He knew the kind of sins they were living in.  He knew the kind of ways they were falling away from God.  He needed to speak harsh words of judgment to wake them up from their spiritual slumber.  But like a parent who doesn’t want to leave his child in despair, he also leaves them with words of encouragement and exhortation to keep pressing on that they may be restored.  He had such vision for this church which from the outset just didn’t seem like they could survive and be that light of the Gospel to the city.  But Apostle Paul lovingly wanted to leave them with words of hope so that they ultimately see his heart for their lives and how much he wanted them to be that light for the people in that city and region.

·         What does v. 8 reveal about what is necessary for the Corinthians to be restored?

The Corinthians needed to hear the truth.  Apostle Paul could not be half hearted in how he dealt with the Corinthians and how they conducted their lives.  He was firstly an advocate of truth to the church so that they can plainly see the extent in which they were disobedient and sinful. He didn’t do this to make them feel bad about themselves, but wanted them to be restored to a place where they can be the pillar of truth and God’s community in that city.

I am reminded of how in my own life, the only real change and restoration that ever occurred in my life was when leaders took the risk to speak the plain truth to me.  The plain truth needed to be spoken because in the end, I needed to see the kind of ways my actions and way of living life affected not only my relationship with God but how it affected my own relationships within the body of Christ.  Although painful and hard to see the truth and kind of sinner I really was, I know that I was also able to experience true freedom in knowing that even though I am fully known, I was also loved, and experienced the joy of being fully restored in my own personal relationship with God.  I was able to gain confidence again to have vision, to have that sense of sharing the same heart and burden that God had for the world, and where I just wanted to just obey God in whatever He called me to do.  In the same way, I see just how much Apostle Paul wanted the Corinthians to experience the same kind of restoration and was willing to do anything for this goal.

·         Of whom can I say that I am glad to be weak so they can be strong?

When I think about being weak, I realize I cannot ever measure up to the kind of weakness and anguish that Apostle Paul had experienced in his ministry.  But as I have joined ministry here in Austin, I know i cannot just sit idly by whenever I notice something which needs to be dealt with or when someone needs to hear some words of truth.  As I think about the kind of love and vision that Apostle Paul had for the Corinthians, I want to have the same kind of zealous vision and hope for the church I am a part of.  To be weak in being vulnerable, in taking risks, in moving out of my own comfort zones and ways where I can avoid conflict, so that through this, the other person can be restored and be strong in the Lord.  I know that I have experienced the most growth when my leaders or peers decided to be weak and vulnerable, in taking risks with me to speak the truth, so that I can know what I am like and in the end be strong in the Lord.  I want to share in this same kind of burden and sense of privilege to be weak so that I can build up the body of Christ I am a part of now.

2 Corinthians 13:10

·         How did Apostle Paul view his authority?

Apostle Paul viewed the authority he had as a something that was God given. Something that He never wanted to take advantage of but something he knew had the power to build up as well as tear down.  Just as he was humble and careful in not wanting to elevate his own status and how others viewed him, he all the more gave credence and wanted to point to the fact that God gave Him the authority to be severe and speak the truths that needed to be spoken.  He viewed his power to be legitimate because God gave Him the rights to do so.

·         When would a spiritual leader’s “severe…use of….authority” be appropriate?

The severe use of authority would be appropriate when God’s honor and His church is at risk of losing it’s power and identity as a pillar of truth.  I look at Apostle Paul and saw how he needed to deal with egregious sins and conduct that the Corinthians were taking part in which would have invalidated their confessions and have been such a source of shame to the church as a whole.  He was not exercising his authority to gain more power for himself or felt like he needed to save face for his own ministry.  He was more concerned over the honor of God and the fact that the church was supposed to be that place where God can be most visible to the communities it was a part of.

Personal Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am reminded again of the high stakes that are involved when being a part of your church.  There is no room for desiring or seeking comfort.  There is no room for any kind of selfish thinking or way of living.  So often I get so focused on my own small world of responsibility and things I need to get done for ministry.  Help me have the same kind of heart that Apostle Paul had.  The same sense of vision and hope that he had for the church and how much it can be that source of truth and Gospel to the world it interacts with.  Lord I want to be weak.  I want to suffer and share the burden in any way possible so that others can be strong and restored in their personal relationship with God and the good work that God has for them to do.

In Jesus Name,

Amen

October 1, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 12)

Submitted by Jackie W., from Gracepoint Austin Church

2 Corinthians 12:14-19

“In 12:14b-15a, Paul supports his affirmation that he is seeking the Corinthians’ welfare, not his own, by returning to imagery of parenthood to describe his relationship with the church. Because he is their spiritual father, Paul is responsible to give to his ‘children,’ not the other way around, even if this means pouring out his life on their behalf.”  [Scott J. Hafemann, 2 Corinthians, The NIV Application Commentary Series CD (Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan, 2000).]

  • Why would Apostle Paul’s successful defense of himself before the Corinthians lead to their “upbuilding?”

Apostle Paul’s successful defense of himself before the Corinthians would lead to their
“upbuilding” because we see through this passage how deeply Apostle Paul loved this church and everything he did was out of his love for them. It was intentional that he didn’t want to be a burden to them; he tells them that he would be glad to be spent for their souls; he didn’t take advantage of them. These Corinthians were thinking that Apostle Paul was out to deceive them, that his intentions weren’t genuine, or that perhaps he had ulterior motives. But he makes it clear through this letter that his actions were meant to build up the Corinthians and that he didn’t do anything without thinking of them first. Also, from Chapter 11, Apostle Paul describes all of the suffering that he went through, and what motivated him and gave him the ability to endure through these sufferings and persevere was because of his love for them. So the amount of love he has for this church comes out very clearly in this letter, as Apostle Paul provides them with one evidence after another of how much he has sacrificed for them and how much more he would be willing to sacrifice for them if it will build them up. Reading through 2 Corinthians and seeing the kind of heart that Apostle Paul had for this church is such a challenge to me as I see how small-hearted I still am and how difficult it is for me to be able to love others, especially towards those who don’t understand my heart or who are critical towards me. Regardless of what the Corinthians thought of Apostle Paul and how they treated him, his love for them never wavered and he had so much hope for them that they would grow and mature into one of the most influential churches despite their immoral past. And so everything he wrote in his letter was meant to build up the church in Corinth.

2 Corinthians 13:1-6

  • The Corinthians were seeking “proof that Christ [was] speaking in” Apostle Paul when there was obvious sin in their lives, including “impurity, sexual immorality, and sensuality” (2 Corinthians 12:21).  What aspect of human nature does this show? 

The aspect of human nature that this shows is the ability for us to find fault in others and to zoom in on the inadequacies and flaws of others while not being willing to see the sins that are within us. We don’t like to reflect and it’s much easier for us to push aside our sins and not deal with them or tell ourselves that we’ll deal with them later, yet we so easily point out other people’s faults. I think this also reveals how with human nature, we’re so blind to ourselves and to our sins and we’re self-deluded, thinking ourselves more highly than we ought. The Corinthians were living in “impurity, sexual immorality, and sensuality,” and they didn’t have a sense of problem that they had such obvious sins in their lives, and yet they were being so nitpicky over certain aspects of Apostle Paul that they didn’t like or that didn’t seem to fit into their picture of what an apostle ought to be like. Because human nature tends to respond this way to sin, I have to be careful that I don’t become critical of other people’s flaws or inadequacies while not dealing with my own sins first. Or else there’s potential for me to become deluded about myself and to become critical of those who are speaking truth into my life.

  • The call to “examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith” seems to indicate that some in the church were probably not Christian at all.  Think of the irony of non-Christians having voice enough to critique Apostle Paul.  Why is this absurd? 

This is absurd because these non-Christians were being so critical towards Apostle Paul when they themselves were not Christian, they were not living in line with the bible and they were living in obvious sin. Apostle Paul was someone who knew the Scripture very well as a former Pharisee and he took what the bible said seriously, and yet these non-Christians thought that they knew better and that they had enough authority to critique him. They hadn’t examined themselves or else they would’ve recognized the different sins they were engaged in and that they were not in any place to criticize him. Apostle Paul’s call to “examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith” is something that every Christian ought to do on a regular basis – and it’s a challenge for me to examine myself, my motives, my thoughts and desires on a regular basis to see if what I am doing is for God or if I am driven by other motives. I need to examine myself to see if I am in the faith, meaning that I can’t just be dutiful, like the older son, doing what’s expected of me and trying to fulfill all of my responsibilities, or else I will eventually run dry. I know I easily get caught up with viewing ministry as a “to-do” list, and even people like that at times, thus I need to examine myself regularly and honestly reflect so that when I find I’m being driven by the wrong things, I can purify my motives before God.

Submitted By Tim F., from Gracepoint Austin Church
2 Corinthians 12:14-19

  • Why would Apostle Paul’s successful defense of himself before the Corinthians lead to their “upbuilding?”

The reason that the Corinthians would be built up lies in what apostle Paul is saying through his defense. We know through reading 2 Cor 11 that this is a church that has just gone through some false apostles coming and doing some damage there. Here we are in the very next chapter and we see that the way in which Paul defends himself is through asking them to consider all the ways in which they have received greatly from Paul and yet Paul has never asked for anything in return. Just like a parent, Paul is the one that pours out on the church in Corinth, doing it all out of love, all along never even thinking of gaining through them anything. As I think about my own life and the leaders that God has put into it, indeed I had spiritual parents that were much like Paul. And what effect did that have on me? How was I built up through them? When I get the sense that I am loved unconditionally, where nothing is expected back from me, then I am able to lay down my performance-driven nature, able to let go of image-maintenance and be real. And when I am able to be truthful about myself with my spiritual leaders, that is where my building-up begins. That is when God can speak into my life, when he can teach me through them and when I lay down my guard. When it is clear that my leaders only care about my welfare and have nothing else to gain, then I can take their words of warning, their corrections, their leading with an open heart and change. And once God has that kind of heart, he can really build his people up. Similar to the way a child who is convinced of his parents love for him can submit to their leading and grow, in the same way, the church in Corinth, after seeing Paul’s earnest and sincere heart for them, they can submit to his authority and be quickly built up into the vision that God has for them. And this has been my testimony as well. There were of course times when I was a stubborn mule, but as the earnestness of my leader’s love and best wishes for me were made clear, I was drawn to taking their words to heart and found myself changing.
2 Corinthians 13:1-6
The Corinthians were seeking “proof that Christ [was] speaking in” Apostle Paul when there was obvious sin in their lives, including “impurity, sexual immorality, and sensuality” (2 Corinthians 12:21).  What aspect of human nature does this show?

This shows how averse we are to even consider looking at our own lives and what is inside of us. Whenever something is shown that paints an unflattering picture of who we are, we quickly start to look around for different ways that we can divert ours and other people’s gaze onto something else. It is like children who when threatened turn to the other person and say “oh yeah, well blah blah blah.” The  attack. It leaves people wondering “where did that come from?” But as I look into myself, I find it so natural that whenever something uncomfortable about me is brought up, I start to question authority, start to look at other people’s faults, try to find ANYTHING that I can point to so that I take the pressure off my own shortcoming. This is one of the fundamental reactions of human nature, and I know that I still, even after my many years of struggling with myself, find myself having the knee-jerk reaction just like the Corinthians did. My pride is so strong still, that to accept something about myself as being wrong, I want to fight against that in whatever way possible. The truth can be staring me in the face, and were I to take an honest moment then I would see it, but instead I will look to start to undermined the credibility of the person saying it.  But the bible tells me that truth is truth, doesn’t matter who says it (even if it is a donkey as in Numbers 22!!).

  • The call to “examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith” seems to indicate that some in the church were probably not Christian at all.  Think of the irony of non-Christians having voice enough to critique Apostle Paul.  Why is this absurd?

This is absurd because they are questioning Paul to prove himself when they cannot even judge what evidence Paul would bring to his defense.  These are people of questionable morals, who have been disregarding the precepts of God and doing whatever they want. Yet, somehow they thought they would be able to understand and judge Paul’s life? It’s so absurd, like if a freshmen taking Introduction To Physics raises his hand during the first lecture and says to the professor, “I don’t think you know what you are talking about! Prove it to me that you know physics!” How can the professor even begin to answer such a person especially since they don’t even have the beginnings of an understanding of physics. To any person who knows how Paul lived, the way in which he ministered to the Corinthians, how he totally gave of himself, to someone who has known even a fraction of that, it would be clear to them that Paul is the real deal, that his love is genuine. The standard of what it means to love has been set out before us by Jesus Christ, and if you see someone living similarly to how Jesus was living, sacrificing it all even to the point of death so that other people might be able to have eternal life, then that person is one who has spiritual authority. And so for anyone in the Corinthian church to critique Paul, knowing the life he lived can only be described as absurd.

Personal Prayer

Heavenly father, thank you for the many times that you have shaken me out of my own deluded thoughts about who I am. Lord, if there ever was a person who had intense pride, who thought that they were always right, it is me. I think back to all the times when, just like the Corinthians, I had thoughts that were far from reality, when I was bitter towards those who challenged me or upset when things didn’t go my way and started to blame you, when I think about those times, those dark days, and how somehow you were able to bring me back to reality, I am just amazed. I was fueled with utterly absurd and baseless feelings, and yet somehow you were able to break through that and remind me of my testimony, the way in which you have walked with me, the way in which the people around me have loved me and wanted only the best for me. Lord, indeed you have been faithful, and you have given me many people who are like Paul to me, who have shown themselves to have nothing but self-sacrificing love, and my history with those people has served to break me out of my pride-filled, emotional craziness so many times. Thank you for bringing such people into my life, and thank you for always reminding me to recount the ways in which I have been saved from many dangers and snares, the ways in which I have been guided in love and led to a deeply meaningful life. I pray that I might not only continue to place my faith in you but that I would also be used as your vehicle to love others in the same way, to bring the truth of your gospel to them and that somehow I would have a testimony similar to Paul’s, one where love can cut through all the misguided thoughts that Satan devises.

Devotion Time September 24-29, 2012

Here are the DT Packet questions for September 24-29, 2012:

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September 28, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 12)

Submitted by Chris P. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 12:5-10

  • What two purposes did Apostle Paul’s “thorn” serve in his life?

The thorn on his side served to prevent A. Paul from becoming conceited. It also served to cause A. Paul to boast in Jesus’ strength. It caused A. Paul to experience God’s strength being made perfect in his weakness and desperation.

  • What are the “thorns” in my life and what is my view toward them?  Have they led me to experience the truth of v. 9?

The large thorn on my side, that messenger of Satan, that tormentor has been my addiction to internet. It started when I was in 4th grade. At first it was something that the kids at school talked about and I didn’t know what it was. But then when I searched it out and found it, I remember feeling that sense of shame and that sense of being so dirty for having done what I knew I wasn’t supposed to do. It was 4th grade… When I look at the other kids at church today who are that age, it’s so appalling that at that age I was exposed to these kinds of images that have haunted me throughout my life. Ever since then, it has been that thorn on my side that really tormented me. It was the voice of Satan telling me that I was worthless, that I was useless, that I was dirty.

In high school, I started going to church and when I heard the gospel message for the first time; I knew that I was sinner. I knew that I was ugly inside and that I was up to the brim, swimming in sin. In high school I remember crying out again and again, quite literally crying out to God to take this thorn from me. Late at night, after my parents had gone to sleep, I remember driving up the hill where my house was, hiking in to a secluded area and just praying to God. I remember asking again and again for God to take this sin away from me. Yet I kept on going back to the same sin again and again. Towards the end of high school, I didn’t understand. I thought God was supposed to save me, to rescue me. I thought that God was supposed to change me. I thought he was supposed to stop this from happening and take this thorn from me. When that didn’t happen, I thought I had somehow missed something that I had somehow not done something right that I had messed up Christianity some how. End of high school to beginning of College… that was the darkest parts of my life. I hated myself, hated my life, hated everything.

It wasn’t until in College that I began to understand this verse. “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. It was during Survival Kit 1 discipleship class, and Kelly was teaching our class. She talked about the gospel and the God of GRACE and not of the LAW. Through that time as well as the different lessons I had been learning from different messages, I remember having that sudden realization and moment of shock. I remember that sudden epiphany… that THIS is the Gospel. While I’m still a sinner, while I’m still THIS messed up inside and I can’t control this addiction that I had grown since 4th grade… that even me, God forgives and washes me clean when I receive God’s forgiveness. I don’t have to prove anything. I don’t have to be good enough, I don’t have to fix myself. Even in these sins that I so desperately wanted to find peace from I realized that Even if I can’t change, God’s grace IS sufficient. It’s SUFFICIENT to save me. It’s SUFFICENT to make me clean. It’s SUFFICIENT to give me life.

When I look back in to my life in hindsight. I realize how God has used this thorn on my side in my life to really teach me how desperately I needed God’s forgiveness. It has kept me from becoming conceited and it has brought me to know the all surpassing greatness of God’s grace. When I look back in to my life I see how it was this that had lead me to seek God and find him.

That lesson though I don’t think ended there. Right now, the thorn on my side and that weakness that I feel still continues in the form of my insecurities that I feel as a minister. I look at myself, and I feel like I just don’t have what it takes to be a good and mature spiritual leader. I feel so inadequate.

But as I really try to embrace the identity as a minister and an apostle that God has given me, I find this same verse coming alive in my life. “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. When I feel weak and insufficient, it’s that chance and opportunity to experience God at work in my life. When I feel weak and insufficient, it’s that chance to see the amazing glory of seeing God’s power. It’s the same concept from 2 Cor 4. It’s that feeling of being crushed, that feeling of being pressed on every side… and in that suffering, in that feeling of inadequacy, in that feeling of pressure as jars of clay, I HAVE the PRIVILEGE of experiencing God’s amazing power sustaining me.

So I don’t lose heart when I feel weak. I don’t lose heart when I feel inadequate. In Christ, In the cross, I have the ASSURANCE that in my weakness, I WILL experience God.

  • Reflect on the words: “My grace is sufficient for you.”  How deep has this truth taken root in my life?  How will this gospel truth give me strength in the midst of experiencing “weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities?”  

It’s ALL about God’s grace. It’s enough. I don’t have to prove it. I don’t have to buy it. I don’t have to prove myself worthy of receiving such a gift. IT really is Christ sacrifice, really is the gospel, really is the GRACE of God that is sufficient. When I look at myself, I realize that this TRUTH is something that I keep on forgetting. So often I find myself going back to again and again to this performance driven mentality where I’m trying to EARN God’s love. When ministry doesn’t go well, I feel rejected by people, then I feel so utterly defeated. In does moments, it’s hard to remember that God’s GRACE really is sufficient. What’s worse, when I know that I’ve done something wrong, when I see that sin living in me that doesn’t easily go away. It’s hard to remember that God’s GRACE IS sufficient.

When I zoom out, I see how this gospel truth that has sprouted in my life when I made that decision to follow God 8 years ago, is taking ROOT in my life. It’s growing deeper in to my heart and in to my life. It was the times when I was really experiencing “weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions and calamities”… it was the times when I was really experiencing some struggle, some suffering… when I was repenting over some sin and was struggling to let something go. It was during these times that the Gospel TRUTH came to life. It was during these times of such discouragement and on the verge of quitting that I had to CLING on to God’s promise of grace and forgiveness. It was during these times that I really experienced the truth of “My grace is sufficient for you”. And it was during these times that I really experienced the Gospel taking root in my life.

  • Reflect on the statement “For when I am weak, then I am strong,” and why this is the uniquely Christian view of power.

What’s the world’s view of power? It’s all about success. It’s all about out-performing others. It’s being smarter and getting better grades. It’s being a harder worker and getting that promotion. It’s all about success and being awesome at what you are doing. It’s all about success and showing others how great you are. That is the view of power in the world.

With Christ, there is a radical change in Christian’s view of power. It’s not about having power to be great, but it is about dependence on God. Being weak and dependent on God’s power. Being weak enough to throw your life to God. Being weak enough to admit that you give up and you need help. In that confession of weakness and casting yourself at the mercy seat of God is when Christians find power in the greatness of God’s love and forgiveness.

The thing about such power from God is that it gives Christians the courage to attempt everything and not lose heart. The truth of the matter is that everyone Christians or not feel weak. Everyone is inadequate. Fearing failure people who do not know God and who hold on to the world’s view of power, they attempt to find power by limiting their range. People don’t attempt things that they know they are not good at. They disengage and give up.

In the Christian view of power “For when I am weak, then I am strong,” gives me courage to attempt everything and all things even when I feel so weak and so bad at doing it. Loving people, caring, ministering, evangelizing, teaching the bible… are all things that I feel so weak at doing. And in the world’s view of power, I would just lose heart, give up and quit. But in light of the gospel and the fact that “when I am weak, then I am strong”.  I can attempt ALL things.

Submitted by Florence T. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 12:5-10

  • What two purposes did Apostle Paul’s “thorn” serve in his life?

The two purposes Apostle Paul’s “thorn” served in his life are (1) to keep him from becoming conceited from having received visions and revelations from God (2) for Paul to experience that God’s grace is sufficient for him and that God’s power is displayed through his weakness.

  • What are the “thorns” in my life and what is my view toward them?  Have they led me to experience the truth of v. 9?

One source of weakness, a “thorn” in my life, is my anguish and burden over a close relative of mine who is not Christian.  I have been praying for his salvation since I first became Christian a decade ago.  When I was younger I actually pleaded with the Lord to take away this responsibility of personally sharing the gospel with him and pray that God would just send a faithful brother into his life.  As I got older, I realized I was such a coward and began to embrace this burden to share the gospel with him; I need not look elsewhere.  It has been an upward battle because he is preoccupied with other things in life, dismissive of Christianity, and always has a smart remarks or rebuttals in response to what I share.  Though I want so much for him to be open to the gospel and honest about his life, it is also something completely out of my control.  Carrying the burden makes me feel weak many times.  But it also helps me experience v9 where it says,“My grace is sufficient for me, for my power is made perfect in weakness”  God gives me grace to not despair and keep trying even though it’s tough because though I am powerless, God has the power to soften his heart and convict him of his need for the gospel.  I can only experience this when I have nothing of my own strength to rely on.

  • Reflect on the words: “My grace is sufficient for you.”  How deep has this truth taken root in my life?  How will this gospel truth give me strength in the midst of experiencing “weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities?”

“My grace is sufficient for you.”  It means God’s mercy upon my life is enough for me – though I am a wretched sinner, stubborn and bent on rebelling against Him and His good boundaries, still He sent His one and only Son to die on the cross for my sins, paying the penalty of my transgressions so that an unrighteous person like me can be counted righteous before a holy God.  Not only so, God’s grace allows me to struggle against my sins.

This truth has taken deeper root in my life over the years.  One significant marker came several years back when I really had to confess and struggle over this one particular sin.  Many times I prayed that God would take it away and just cleanse me once and for all because I hated this sin yet felt so powerless, as it says in Romans 7:15 “for what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.”  During this period, the gospel became so concrete to me as I see that I really have no power to make myself clean, only through Jesus, who paid it all on the cross, was I given a clean slate, freeing me from my guilt and shame.  Indeed only his grace is sufficient to cover over my sins.  This truth gave me strength to struggle against this sin in the midst of many failures.  Each time I fell, rather than falling into despair or making empty promises to not sin again, I am reminded of God’s grace – how he has paid it all already and I am counted righteous, not only so, these struggles will come to an end in heaven when I will finally be set free.

  • Reflect on the statement “For when I am weak, then I am strong,” and why this is the uniquely Christian view of power.

“For when I am weak, then I am strong” is uniquely a Christian view of power because when we are running out of our own strength, that’s when we can turn to God and rely on His strength.  As a mother of two now, life has gotten really chaotic at times trying to take care of my children while not slowing down in ministry.  Sometimes it is hard to fight sleepiness and fatigue, I feel like I have very little time or strength to give to others.  During these times, God would break my heart by showing me sins and struggles that the people entrusted to me are dealing with, and He would open my eyes to see the spiritual reality that we are in where Satan is snatching people away with his cunning ways and twisted lies, derailing people from seeking God.  Through these realizations, God gives me renewed strength, strength I did not have on my own, to not focus on my lack but go and meet the needs of others.  And as I do so, I experience my spirit being lifted as I see people change and come closer to God.

Submitted by Jesse K. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 12:5-10

  • What two purposes did Apostle Paul’s “thorn” serve in his life?

The two purposes that the thorn in Paul’s side served was to keep him from becoming conceited and to make Christ’s power perfect in Paul’s weakness.  This thorn–a persistent reminder of Paul’s weakness, frailty and/or sinfulness–-would keep him from ever thinking too highly of himself.  He would never become big headed or begin to believe his own hype because of this clear and persistent reminder.

At the same time, regarding this thorn, Jesus says, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  It’s in this state of weakness that Jesus’ power is made evident.  As Paul endures the list of troubles in the previous chapter in his state of weakness, it’s probably very clear to him that it was God who pulled him through.  And as Paul experienced affliction in every way, but not being crushed, it served to shows others that the “surpassing power belong to God” and not to him.

  • What are the “thorns” in my life and what is my view toward them?  Have they led me to experience the truth of v. 9?

The thorns in my life that serve as a constant reminder of my weakness are the different ways my sins of passivity, my pride, lack of heart and selfish view of the world manifest.  Especially as I think about all the people whom I have been called and entrusted to minister to, this feeling of weakness becomes very acute.  I don’t like these things, and I pray against them, but at the same time, these things serve to humble me before God, make me come to him for forgiveness and keep the gospel fresh on my heart.  As I realize how again I’ve looked down on my friend, or again I’ve acted out of frustration towards somebody whom I’m called to minister to, or again how I’ve been rude and unloving towards my wife, whatever sense of ego and hype that I build up for myself vanishes.  And it comes back to the bottom line of Jesus’ grace and forgiveness.  That is why I am here.  That is why I have salvation, and have been entrusted with his ministry of reconciliation.  It’s not my merits, it’s not because I’m such a loving person, but it’s because of the grace of God.

But this kind of clarity comes only when I see these thorns and come to God in confession and repentance.  The problem is that I get so used to these thorns.  It’s ironic and tragic that the very things that should serve to remind me of my weakness, I get so accustomed to.  My natural tendency is to do things without slowing down to think.  So my sins and my weakness, much of the time go by unnoticed unless I take the time to think, or until they’re pointed out by people or by the Word of God.  I need to think much more and to allows these sins and thorns to remind me of my weakness since God’s “power is made perfect in weakness.”

  • Reflect on the words: “My grace is sufficient for you.”  How deep has this truth taken root in my life?  How will this gospel truth give me strength in the midst of experiencing “weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities?”

More and more, I realize the truth of this verse.  As I get older, as I gain more responsibilities in life, at work and try to love more people, I come to see much more clearly my lacks and how weak I am.  More and more I see the limit of my love, as I see the limit of my generosity, as I see the limit of my discipline and my wisdom.  And yet I see God’s work being done in me, through me and around me in the lives of others.  Truly God’s grace is sufficient and his power is made perfect in weakness.  And as I get older, and as life is bound to get harder, this fact gives me strength and hope to face it.  When persecution comes, when financial hardships and the daunting loan repayment kick in, when some unpredicted calamities happen, I can trust that in my weakness, Jesus’ power is made perfect.  So I will stay faithful to my Lord, and like Paul says, “For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

  • Reflect on the statement “For when I am weak, then I am strong,” and why this is the uniquely Christian view of power.

To the rest of the world, power is the ability to do as you please, to push others around and to be completely unperturbed by whatever circumstance.  These days, it arises from financial stability, social prestige and status.  Being strong is having life all together.  Being strong is having everything under control and having no need or any lack.

In contrast, Paul says, “when I am weak, then I am strong.”  When he lacks the very things the rest of the world touts as strength, Paul says that he is strong.  And this is so because in weakness, Paul exhibits and shows God’s strength.  As he submits himself and stays faithful to God’s work in the face of hardships and insults, his strength is made evident.  And this strength is the strength that is able to defy what the rest of the world says.  It’s the strength that shows his trust in God.  It’s the strength that he receives from God to pull him through these circumstances.  It’s the strength that arises from the gospel.  Likewise as I experience this kind of weaknesses, insults and hardships, I can show God’s strength, as I remain faithful to him and the work he has given me.  And this serves as a powerful testimony to others.  For myself, as I saw the lives of those ahead of me in the faith, and how they experienced this kind of weakness, it was clear that their strength must be coming from something deeper than whatever worldly security they accumulated.  That kind of strength that I saw, could only come from God.

Personal Prayer

God, I thank you for your grace, for you say that your grace is sufficient and that your power is made perfect in weakness.  As I get older, as life gets busier and as I try to love people more, I see the truth of this verse.  Yet, at the same time, I know that my natural reaction is to run away from this weakness.  Though I know intellectually that this is true, in that way I still hold onto the worldly view of power and strength.  So help me to slows down and see the thorns in side, the flaws in my character, the sins in my heart, so that I can be brought back to the basic gospel.  Help me to embrace the hardships and the opportunities to be weak, because in those instances, is when I am strong.

Submitted by Vivian P. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 12:5-10

  • What two purposes did Apostle Paul’s “thorn” serve in his life?

The two purposes of Apostle Paul’s “thorn” were to keep him from becoming conceited and so that so that Christ’s power would be made perfect in his weaknesses.

  • What are the “thorns” in my life and what is my view toward them?  Have they led me to experience the truth of v. 9?

One “thorn” that both plagued me and humbled me during my college years was improper view of my body which was caused by an obsession to be thin and attractive. It was sourced in a misplaced desire for love and approval, having bought into Satan’s lie that my worth lies in the outward appearance. It enslaved me in college.  This struggle brought me a lot of shame, and I felt unlovable. Yet it was this struggle helped me understand deeper that something deeply broken in me; there is a sinful nature within me to which I am helpless and that I need deliverance from. It was this struggle that humbled me and caused me to pray, to seek the help of my peers and leaders, and caused me to turn to God’s Word to renew my values regarding my source of significance. It was through this struggle that I had once wanted to take to the grave with me, that I was able to more deeply claim my true identity as a daughter of Christ, and be used to be a source of help and blessing to others with similar struggles. In a way that I didn’t expect, God used this thorn in my life to allow his power to be made manifest and made perfect.

Another thorn that prevents me from being conceited and turning to God’s power in my weakness is my sense of inadequacy to the tasks that God calls me to do. Often I feel tormented by Satan’s lies that question my competence in different aspects of ministry, magnifies my inadequacies, tries to cause me to doubt whether I can handle this responsibility. When I give into Satan’s lies, they paralyze me and cause me to become very inwardly bent and give into many negative thoughts. However, it’s also this sense of inadequacy, Satan’s attempts to magnify my lacks, that actually causes me to turn to God more desperately. As I engage in ministry this year, I feel weak because I lack wisdom, discernment, and experience, among other things. And actually this thorn humbles me to pray more desperately, to hunger for God’s guidance each day through his Word, and makes me eager to seek wisdom from my leaders who have much more experience and wisdom under their belt. In facing this thorn, I have learned to claim and appreciate the truths in God’s Word more deeply. As each year, rather than this sense of inadequacy decreasing, in some way, I feel like it’s been increasing. And I feel like God is really trying to teach me of his sufficiency in being my source of significance, in securing my competence as a minister, and in the moving of people’s hearts. I’ve experienced v. 9 of Gods’ grace being sufficient, in instances where it was clear that despite my bumbling words, God used the five loaves and two fish I brought to him, to communicate the gospel to a seeker. Because of my weaknesses, I could not claim that any results were because of my own competence and efforts, but really give glory to God, that his power was made manifest all the more in my weakness.

  • Reflect on the words: “My grace is sufficient for you.”  How deep has this truth taken root in my life?  How will this gospel truth give me strength in the midst of experiencing “weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities?”

While this truth that God’s grace is sufficient is something I know to be true in my head and something that I have concretely experienced, I find myself looking inward for that source of sufficiency, and this causes me to fall into insecurities and negative thoughts. If I give into these thoughts, they paralyze me, causing me to be bent inward and stunts my ability to love and care for others. However, when I go back to God’s Word and the truths it proclaims, that it’s not because of who I am, or anything I’ve done, but solely because of what Christ did on the cross that I, as a wretched sinner, have been granted a righteous standing before God, allows me to experience security and peace to cast aside Satan’s lies. The fact that God is with me, and that his power is made perfect in weakness, helps me to not crumble at the weight of suffering, but all the more, I can turn to God for strength and hope.  As I am reassured of God’s love for me and I am reminded that my identity before him, that he has given me, is as a child of God, co-heir with Christ, and ambassador of Christ, Satan can throw all kinds of accusations at me, and I may face difficulties in this world, but I can have hope and be strengthened endure and obey to do his good work. Moreover it causes me to grow in longing for that day in heaven when I will be fully set free from my sins and shortcomings, and be fully at rest in him. It’s a daily battle I need to engage in again and again, to claim God’s truths against Satan’s lies, and in so doing, allow this truth to root deeper into my heart and identity.

  • Reflect on the statement “For when I am weak, then I am strong,” and why this is the uniquely Christian view of power.

According to the world’s notion of power, this statement is a paradox that makes no sense. This world’s notion of power is a very self-centered one that we need to derive our source of strength from our own competence and is fueled by a desire to exalt oneself, to make it to the top of the social rung, to prove one’s worth to others. However, the Christian view of power is actually that in our weakness, we can rely upon God and that his power would be manifest within us. The source of this power is God and not ourselves, it comes from a place of humility rather than pride, and it glorifies God rather than glorifying ourselves. It’s a power that sets us free from being fueled by anxiety to perform and out-do others, as we are free to admit our weaknesses and rely upon God’s strength. This power is embodied in the gospel where Jesus, in limiting himself, weakening himself in some ways, out of his love for us, and in so doing, demonstrates true power in being able to forgive a multitude of sins, reconcile sinful man to a holy God and conquer the greatest enemy, death. I’ve personally experienced that this power is stronger than worldly power. All throughout my life, seeking worldly power in academics, in popularity, and in whatever arena of life that I felt like I had some shred of potential in, I felt like it was a never-ending rat race to try to appear competent and impressive, that left me anxious and unfulfilled. It was through different struggles when I was able to recognize and admit my true weakness and helplessness, that I was able to be set free from the enslaving anxieties and fears of trying to appear impressive, and claim Jesus’ power to set me free from my sinful nature and give me the peace of being known, loved, forgiven, and given eternal assurance. There is still a pride in me just wants to perform and try to handle things on my own strength, which causes worry and anxiety. However when I come before God in prayer, bringing all my worries and anxieties at his feet, I can experience God’s strength providing me more than enough and restoring peace.

Personal Prayer

Heavenly Father,

Thank you so much for the sufficiency of your grace. I am reminded through today’s dt that my source of assurance for salvation, my worth as a daughter of Christ, my identity as a minister of the gospel, all comes from you, not by anything I have done, but by what you have done for me. I confess that I so often fall into sense of inadequacy that paralyzes me and bends me inward. Please help me to claim the truths in your word daily, to fight against this thorn and to pray more desperately for myself and for the people that you’ve paced in my life. You are the true source of power and to be weak before you is a good place to be. Thank you that this thorn can be used to keep me humble and dependent on you. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

September 27, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 12)

Submitted by Wilson F. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 12:1-5; 11

“The striking absence of references to visions and revelations in Paul’s letters demonstrates his own lack of interest in sharing such private, spiritual experiences. He viewed them as without benefit either for establishing his authority as an apostle or for building up the church.”  [Scott J. Hafemann, 2 Corinthians, The NIV Application Commentary Series CD (Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan, 2000).]

  • Even though Apostle Paul did not want to “go on boasting,” he says the Corinthians “forced [him] to do it” (v. 11) because they thought he was “inferior” to the false teachers to whom he refers sarcastically as “super-apostles.”  What does this reveal about the nature of the boastful claims made by the false teachers?

The nature of these boastful claims made by the false teachers was that they presented themselves in a position of superiority, thereby casting everyone as inferior, beneath them in terms of status and recognition within the church community.  From the context, it can be inferred that the false teachers were boasting about having these visions and revelations of the Lord, these ecstatic experiences; and Apostle Paul hints at the danger of “becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations” (v. 7), and clearly, the false teachers were striving to promote themselves, to elevate their image before others, to distinguish themselves from the “unspiritual rank-and-file.”  Essentially, their boasting was full of self, full of pride, full of “hey, look at me and how spiritual and specially anointed and close to God I am!”  In that sense, it was about setting themselves apart from men, when as ministers of reconciliation, they should have been focused on reconciling men back to God (c.f. 2 Corinthians 5:18-20) – and that is why these teachers were false.

  • In recalling his own experiences, why would Paul choose to refer to himself in the third person?

Paul chose to refer to himself in the third person because he did not want to draw that kind of attention upon himself, to participate in that self-promoting declaration of his personal mystical experiences.  He refused to have people think more highly of him based on his recounting of visions and revelations of the Lord, but rather to look upon his life and judge him according to what one “sees in [him] or hears from [him]” (v. 6).  In genuine humility, he sought to show that it was not about him, but rather about God – and so he boasts “all the more gladly of [his] weaknesses” to showcase Christ’s power at work in his life.  So he does not engage in the “hey, look at me…!” but directs all the attention to Christ and the all-sufficiency of his grace manifest in him.

The application is not to start referring to myself in the third person when describing my personal relationship with God, but it is to examine my own heart and to consider the words I speak, the thoughts I entertain, and the motives I encourage in my heart – considering how much they are designed to make myself look better and to get others to think more highly of me.  The temptation is so strong because my pride and ego are so strong, and it feels so good to derive a sense of significance from other people’s respect and reverence and awe of me.  But conceit and boasting in personal greatness were the hallmark features of the false teachers back then, and they remain so even today.  That is why Paul talks about a thorn in the flesh, “a messenger of Satan to harass [him]” (v. 7) in order to keep him humble.  So as I think about my own testimony and about the things I deal with even today, I am reminded that I am nothing more than a struggling sinner in need of God’s grace every single day, and that ultimately all that is good in me is because of the power of Christ resting upon me in the midst of my weakness, my sin, my battles with the flesh.

2 Corinthians 12:5-6

“Accordingly, Paul restrains himself from such boasting so that no one will brag about him beyond what can be evaluated objectively (cf. 5:12–13; 10:7, 11–14, 17–18)…what counts is what others can observe concerning his words and deeds (12:6).” [Scott J. Hafemann, 2 Corinthians, The NIV Application Commentary Series CD (Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan, 2000).]

  • According to v. 6, on what basis did Paul want to be thought of or judged?

On the basis of what one can see in him or hear from him, on the basis of his actions, lifestyle choices, and conduct as well as his words, either in public preaching or in private conversation.

  • Reflect on the fact that Apostle Paul wanted “no one [to] think more of [him]” than what “[one] sees in [him] or hears from [him].”  Why is this appropriate as a Christian?

This attitude of not wanting anyone to think more highly of himself is appropriate as a Christian because a Christian has to be committed to truth.  As a follower of Christ, he must not engage in mask-wearing, putting on a pretense of someone he is not; instead, he strives for transparency so that what you see (and hear) is what you get.

  • In what ways were the false teachers not like this?

The false teachers were not committed to truth, instead trying to project an image of themselves that was divorced from reality.  They wanted to highlight their positives aspects while ignoring their negative aspects.  Like the Pharisees in Jesus’ day, they wanted to appear “righteous,” omitting any mention of their sinful heart.  And sadly, the Corinthians were taken by their presentation and started to stray from the pure and single devotion to Christ.

  • In what ways do I seek others’ approval through image-maintenance of some sort?

One way in which I seek others’ approval through image-maintenance is by caring so much about what others think of me.  For as long as I could remember, I was a people-pleaser, wanting to be well-liked by everyone around me, because I wanted their acceptance and eventually their recognition and approval.  This was how I approached my friends and classmates at school, and I imported that same people-consciousness into the church.  The problem was that I felt forced to suppress the truth about my sinfulness out of fear of rejection, and so I presented myself as a nice, decent and respectable person, when all the while, I was giving into my lust and greed again and again.

What freed me from this approval-seeking people-consciousness was opening myself up to the people in this community of faith, to my brothers and sisters, and then having my leaders speak truth into my life as they noticed the discrepancy between my profession of faith and my practice.  They also taught me how to confess my sins and to be honest before God and with others, and taught me the importance of cultivating a secret personal relationship with God, where I am doing things for God away from the gaze of man, where I do not even breathe a word about them either.  Through these steps, I developed an identity before God, grounded in truth, no longer trying to be impressive.

As a leader in our church, the temptation is even greater, given my title and position – and that is why my times devoted to God and spent in his Word are so crucial in keeping me honest before God and real with myself.  Remembering the darkness from which God has called me and confessing the sins I still battle, I keep my leadership role from getting to my head.  Instead, I can only pause and marvel at the fact that God would choose to use a sinner like me.  During the past two times in which I taught Bible Study during our Friday Night gatherings, I was able to share some pretty shameful things about myself, both from the past and from things going on now.  Even as I was preparing the night before, I reconsidered saying anything, preferring to preserve my image and reputation in front of my staff and students.  However, my hope and prayer were that through my honest sharing, they could relate to the message better, and additionally, they would be encouraged to be honest in confessing their own sins.  Looking back, though I am not sure if that happened in their lives or not, I am thankful that I had that opportunity – to be able to say with Apostle Paul that “I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses” so that I experience once again the sufficiency of God’s grace and so that Christ may receive all the glory.

  • According to the passage below, a part of the objective reality by which Apostle Paul wished to be seen, compared to the false teachers, had to do with the fact that he brought the gospel to the Corinthians.  This was in contrast to what the false teachers were doing in “boasting…in the labors of others.” 

2 Corinthians 10:13–15 (ESV)

13 But we will not boast beyond limits, but will boast only with regard to the area of influence God assigned to us, to reach even to you. 14 For we are not overextending ourselves, as though we did not reach you. For we were the first to come all the way to you with the gospel of Christ. 15 We do not boast beyond limit in the labors of others.

  • What does this passage (2 Corinthians 10:13-15) show about one possible criteria by which false teachers can be discerned?

From this passage, one possible criteria by which false teachers can be discerned is if they are “boast[ing] … in the labors of others” (10:15).  Apostle Paul wanted to be clear, that he would “boast only with regard to the influence God assigned to [him],” suggesting that the false teachers were attempting to take credit for work done by others.  He points out that he and his missionary companions were the first ones to bring the gospel of Christ to them, laboring hard and sacrificing much so that the Corinthian church would be built upon a strong biblical foundation.  Then the false teachers come along and act as if they had something to do with the planting of the church, as if the Corinthians owed them for services they never rendered.  In that way, the false teachers were trying to “muscle” their way into another person’s ministry, rather than looking for ways to carry the gospel to people who have never heard.  It makes sense that they would use such a tact, because amongst believers, they have an audience that is responsive to the gospel and friendly toward preachers, and simply by being eloquent and winsome, they can steal their affections and loyalties with a watered-down version of the gospel.

Submitted by Steven C. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 12:1-5; 11

  • Even though Apostle Paul did not want to “go on boasting,” he says the Corinthians “forced [him] to do it” (v. 11) because they thought he was “inferior” to the false teachers to whom he refers sarcastically as “super-apostles.”  What does this reveal about the nature of the boastful claims made by the false teachers?

Based on the content that Apostle Paul refers, to in v.1, “I will go on to visions and revelations of the Lord,” it reveals that the false teachers were boasting of fantastical visions and revelations that they personally received.  Their boasts, were about the spiritual experiences that likely spoke of supernatural phenomena, mystical visions and other out of this world happenings that can’t be explained by science or any other observable phenomena.  The thing about these supernatural visions and revelations, is that they can neither be confirmed nor definitively rejected because they are based on personal experience.  So, no matter how fanatical, how absurd and unbelievable a revelation may seem, it’s impossible to show that they are wrong, that they’re lying or that their experience wasn’t actually what happened.  So, in thinking about these false teachers, the focus of their boasting was fantastical events, but Apostle Paul totally dismisses them and sarcastically calls them “super-apostles,” because their revelations and visions don’t ultimately lead to building up the church.  If anything, they serve to boost the ego of these false apostles and gather around themselves a following of people.

  • In recalling his own experiences, why would Paul choose to refer to himself in the third person?

Apostle Paul was embarrassed at the fact that he was actually sharing about his own supernatural experience.  So, to distance himself from the actual event, Apostle Paul speaks about a man that he knew, when in fact the man he speaks about is himself.  If he talks about someone else that he knows, but doesn’t identify himself, Apostle Paul is able to speak more candidly and openly, as opposed to directly linking himself to the event.  If he were to speak in the first person, he would likely feel very embarrassed and rather sheepish, in having to boast before the Corinthians about this matter.

2 Corinthians 12:5-6

  • According to v. 6, on what basis did Paul want to be thought of or judged?

Apostle Paul wants to be judged by the words that he speaks and what can be observed about his life.  He doesn’t want his life to be thought about or judged by personal narratives of supernatural and fantastical visions, that ultimately do nothing to build up the church.  Apostle Paul’s focus is that, “no one may think more of me than he sees in me or hears from me”.  He wants his life to be judged and considered based on what anyone can observe, know and hear about his life.  It has to be something concrete and specific that one could point to.

  • Reflect on the fact that Apostle Paul wanted “no one [to] think more of [him]” than what “[one] sees in [him] or hears from [him].”  Why is this appropriate as a Christian?

Apostle Paul was very clear on his focus and purpose as an Apostle and servant of Christ Jesus.  He didn’t like the fact that he was being obligated and forced to boast before the Corinthians about his own personal vision that he received from God.  He knew and recognized that it was a blessing and revelation that God intended for him to receive.  Instead, of having the Corinthians and other people judge and perceive his life based on these other supernatural occurrences, Apostle Paul iterates the importance of first judging his life based on objective and observable facts about his life.  And, for Christians, this really is a very important concept to understand.  Christians are very good at telling other people how to live their lives according to God’s holy standard, but Christians have to first demonstrate this in their own lives.  The unfortunate truth, is that there are so many hypocritical Christians out there who preach about holy living, who share about how people ought live their lives, but their own lives are terribly unreflective of the truth they preach.  Hypocritical Christians are one of the most damaging things to the Christian faith, thus it is so important that each Christian hears and heeds the words of Apostle Paul.  Their actions have to speak louder than their boasts about the transforming power of the gospel.

  • In what ways were the false teachers not like this?

The false teachers were very different from Apostle Paul, in that their boasts, were primarily focused on the supernatural and sharing about visions and experiences.  Instead of focusing on the pattern of their lives and teaching about life that is understandable to all, they instead chose to persevere on these un-relatable phenomena that ultimately do very little for anyone to further know or understand God’s character.

  • In what ways do I seek others’ approval through image-maintenance of some sort?

I seek others’ approval through my own competencies and simply staying on top of everything that I’m doing.  Life, ministry, working and everything can be really crazy at times.  And, even though it can feel like it’s out of control inside, I always try to appear calm and composed on the surface, because I don’t want people to actually know that I’m not that competent, I just barely get by in life.  So, instead of asking for help, I try to simply do most things on my own.  Despite how behind I am with many things, I hastily try to get it done before the actual deadline in hopes that people won’t really notice.  But, this is such a tiring act, because undoubtedly I drop balls, make mistakes and things, of course, don’t get done, or they’re not done well.  But, because I’m so proud and I want to appear competent and capable, I don’t reach out to others.  This image-maintenance and approval seeking is so tiring because I’m constantly trying to show that I have everything together, when in fact I don’t, I’m not that put together as I often think of myself, and the fact of the matter is that I desperately need others’ help.

According to the passage below, a part of the objective reality by which Apostle Paul wished to be seen, compared to the false teachers, had to do with the fact that he brought the gospel to the Corinthians.  This was in contrast to what the false teachers were doing in “boasting…in the labors of others.”

  • What does this passage (2 Corinthians 10:13-15) show about one possible criteria by which false teachers can be discerned?

Here, Apostle Paul notes how his boasting is about the objective reality that he was the first to bring them the gospel and preach the message of Christ.  Instead, of simply bringing fanciful stories and personal boastings like the false teachers, Apostle Paul boasts simply about his labors in the gospel for the sake of the Corinthians.  So, one possible criterion by which these false teachers can be discerned is by if they boast about their own labors or boast in the labors of others as though it were their own.  Are these false teachers going to unreached people who’ve never heard the gospel, or are they going to people who’ve been converted by the work of some missionary and claiming them as their own?  Ultimately, these false teachers were stirring up factions and divisions within the church that Apostle Paul had labored so hard to establish, and in a sense these false teachers were trying to steal away the people that Apostle Paul had converted.

September 26, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 11)

Submitted by Becky F. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 11:19-21

“In yet another statement of biting irony, even sarcasm, Paul therefore admits to the ‘shame’ he feels over being too ‘weak’ to act like his opponents (11:21a; cf. the earlier reference to his physical weakness in 10:10). His ‘weakness’ is the strength of his apostolic calling and character; his opponents’ supposed ‘strength’ reveals the weakness of their claims and the sinfulness of their attitudes and actions.” [Hafemann, Scott J. “2 Corinthians 11:1 - 33” In NIV Application Commentary, New Testament: 2 Corinthians. 421-456. Grand Rapids: Zondervan, © 2000.]

  • Why would the Corinthians have responded favorably to these false apostles who were boastful, oppressive, “[put] on airs,” and “[struck them] in the face?” 

The Corinthians probably responded favorably to these false apostles because they were “expensive” and impressive in worldly terms.  They held themselves out with bold confidence, acted like they were so important and higher than others including the Corinthians.  The Corinthians, being worldly in their values and insecure, were fooled by this.  They were like little children, or even teenagers and sadly adults too, who are impressed by outward appearances of being impressive, when someone is snobby, dresses well, holds himself or herself out as above others.  The Corinthians were not used to the kind of free love that Apostle Paul gave so generously, foolishly assuming that because he gave it so freely and generously, his time, energy, attention, emotions, that it was not so valuable.  It is like the foolish way as children and teenagers we often devalue the rich and overflowing love of our parents which comes at no cost to us and is even urged upon us, and instead chase and long after the attention and fickle approval of friends and classmates, popularity and romance, instead.

  • Think about the notions of “strength” and “weakness” as it played out between the Corinthians and Apostle Paul.  What is the biblical view of strength?

The Corinthians thought that strength was powering up over people and exercising control over them.  They thought that being strong was what the false apostles did–making slaves of them, taking advantage of them, putting on airs and abusing them, looking down on them.  They saw Apostle Paul as weak for not exercising authority over others to his own advantage and pride.  On top of that, they found strength in title, status, background, credential by birth.  They held onto a worldly view of strength and loathing of weakness.  But Apostle Paul found his credentials as a servant of Christ not in his title and background, but in his sufferings and weaknesses he faced for the sake of Christ—in imprisonment, beatings, persecution, on top of the sleepless nights and worried heart he had over the believers in the churches.  What the world and the Corinthians valued, this so-called strength and avoiding sufferings and being weak, contrasted so much with the life and testimony of Apostle Paul, who took on weakness and suffering for Christ and boasted in the things that showed his weakness.  As Apostle Paul demonstrated, the biblical view of strength is taking on weakness in love, for the sake of others.   It is taking on limitation, suffering, sacrifice, out of desire to obey and honor Christ, which is being weak in the world’s eyes.

  • When I interact with others, which attitude do I have—the one of Apostle Paul, or the one of the false teachers?

When I think about it, I agree with the attitude of Apostle Paul, that I should and want to take on limitation for the sake of Christ, to obey Him and love others.  But when it plays out, my emotions betray how often I have the attitude of the false teachers, who hated weakness and wanted to be impressive, strong, not vulnerable, not lower themselves to care for others really.  I see this is how I want to be strong in the worldly sense, in being on top of things, competent, wise, “doing the right thing,” and hate being weak in not being able to get things done, do things right, say the right thing, as well as in subjecting myself to the fickleness and carelessness of others I try to love, who are clueless or careless to the time, energy, prayer, emotion, thought, I put into trying to help them, crying out for them, etc.  I see what a worldly attitude I have when I am hurt or offended so easily by their rejection or misunderstanding or coolness, subjected myself to caring about them and my pride recoils, thinking who needs this, why should I as a mother of two who has many other things to do and be interested in, lower myself to try to get to know and face coolness, awkwardness, rejection, from college students?  I see too my worldly attitude in wanting to be strong and right, to not make mistakes, to not mess up or face difficulty, misunderstanding, rejection, a bumpy road.  All of these things, my own weakness and brokenness as well as helplessness against a lot of the unfair criticism and rejection of others for the sake of Christ, according to Apostle Paul are actually things to boast of as a servant of Christ.

2 Corinthians 11:23-30

  • Reflect on all the ways in which Apostle Paul suffered in carrying out his ministry.

Apostle Paul suffered so much in carrying out his ministry—physically, emotionally, mentally.  In all things he suffered, from both strangers and unfair distant mockers and slanderers, as well as those close to him, fellow brothers betraying him.  He underwent such physical suffering, from being beaten and imprisoned to being shipwrecked and hungry and thirsty and sleepless.  On top of that, Apostle Paul underwent the suffering of being burden over the believers in the churches, feeling their weakness, crying out for them, warning them, confronting them, encouraging them, taking on the roller coaster of what it means to love someone and subject oneself to all the ups and downs of a person’s heart and life in general.  On every level, Apostle Paul suffered in carrying out the duties of his ministry with all his heart.

  • What might be the relationship between Apostle Paul’s amazing ability to endure hardships and what he says in vv. 28-29?

Apostle Paul’s amazing ability to endure hardships might be related to his heart expressed in these verses.  He loved and identified so much with the believers that he could not let them down, could not give up.  His love for them resulted in perseverance through hardships and persecution because he knew that he affected his fellow brothers and sisters so profoundly, as an example, their spiritual leader, and just part of the body of Christ.  He might have been able to continue on through such dramatic frequent persecution and temptation to despair because he knew he would send ripple effects throughout the body of Christ and beyond.

  • How does Apostle Paul’s description of his “daily pressure” challenge a more idyllic notion of Christian life?

Apostle Paul’s description of his daily pressure of his anxiety for all the churches blows out of the water a more idyllic notion of Christian life.  Apostle Paul, such a godly man and passionate servant of Christ, awesome missionary, forefather to us all, led this kind of life, where he felt daily anxious, burdened, for all the churches.  Of all people, he was so spiritual and godly, such a earnest and amazing man, yet even he felt this incredible burden of pressure daily for the believers of all the churches.  His heart ached, worried, feared for, the believers.  He was anything but smug and complacent or emotionally comfortable.

This is actually encouraging to me, that my picture of Christian life as supposed to be neat, tidy, together, feeling on top of things and strong and with it, competent, having all the right answers, not moved or shaken up by the ups and downs of life and other people, is not a realistic or biblical view of Christian life.  Even Apostle Paul felt this kind of daily pressure and anxiety in concern for his fellow believers, his brothers and sisters in Christ.  He suffered so much for Christ, was close to Him, yet his life was not the smooth, comfortable image I have of Christian life in how it’s “supposed to be.”  So really my aim and measure and evaluation of Christian life, life with God, should not be how smooth, strong, competent, I am.  It really isn’t meant to be smooth sailing as I stubbornly keep thinking, because we are broken sinners living in a broken, sinful world.  So that I am not together, don’t feel like I’m on top of things, often feel like I’m running around bumbling around and messing things up everywhere I go, don’t have it together, don’t have this sense of just being confident and calm, feel burdened and worried over people, go through ups and downs with myself and with other people, doesn’t necessarily mean that I am doing life with God wrong.  Christian life is a life of following after God and relating with Him along the way, and this demands loving people because He loves and treasures and longs for people so much.  That means actually I should not feel so smug and confident and unmoved, immune from pain and hurt and worry.  In fact, in many ways, Christian life is meant to intensify the kind of heart including pain and burdens I feel for others instead of living a selfish, utterly self-absorbed life.

  • What does Apostle Paul’s identification with the members of his churches tell me about the nature of love? 

Apostle Paul’s identification with the members of his churches shows me that the nature of love is to be with.  Just as God showed the incredible extent of His love for us by sending His Son Jesus, Emmanuel, to come be with us, Apostle Paul also models what true love is in his life and heart of identifying so much with the members of his churches, that even when they are facing sin and temptation and stumbling, he is so affected.  This tells me that really loving someone means being so much with them that their pain, as well as their joy and struggles, become my own as well, as I go through them together with her.  It means that loving a person means refusing to protect myself and keep myself at a “safe” distance, preserving my emotional comfort by not wanting to get into messy details.  Love is identifying with people in their pain and weakness (as well as joys and triumphs), tearing down the wall of separation I automatically place between others and me, to limit my liability for pain and disturbance.  It means saying there is no wall, that what affects her affects me.

Submitted by Joe H.  from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 11:19-21

  • Why would the Corinthians have responded favorably to these false apostles who were boastful, oppressive, “[put] on airs,” and “[struck them] in the face?”
  • Think about the notions of “strength” and “weakness” as it played out between the Corinthians and Apostle Paul.  What is the biblical view of strength?
  • When I interact with others, which attitude do I have—the one of Apostle Paul, or the one of the false teachers?

The Corinthians responded favorably to these false apostles because they thought that they were strong and powerful apostles. Their idea of what was strong and what was weak was still very worldly. Earlier they also talk about how they thought that Paul was a weak speaker in person. He was probably not as ‘impressive’ an orator as some of the traveling orators of the day. In this passage, it talks about how Paul did not charge them money. But they were probably more impressed by the false apostles who did charge them money. Perhaps it’s one of those things where because the false apostles are more expensive, they felt like they must be worth more.

So what did they consider strong, and what did they consider weak? This passage reminds me of the late Apple founder, Steve Jobs. He is certainly an “impressive” man. He changed several different industries over the course of several decades and eventually led his company to be the largest public company in the world. And because of this, so many people admired him and allowed him to treat them in ridiculous ways. He would often yell and scream during meetings, berating people for their work, firing people on a whim. He usually didn’t care about others’ ideas unless it coincided with his own. Indeed, he was boastful, oppressive, put on airs and struck people with many verbal barbs. But still people considered him such a great man because of what they considered to be strong. He was in a position of power, and others had to cower to him.

But what is the biblical view of strength? Apostle Paul presents such a different picture. He often seems like he’s in a position of weakness. Throughout this whole letter, and in 1 Corinthians, he is often pleading with the Corinthians over this matter or that. He is not into making himself look “impressive” – they even accused him of having a weak presence in their midst. But it turns out that this is actually strength! One reason, which Paul talks about in chapter 12, about how God’s grace is sufficient and his power is made perfect in weakness, and therefore when Paul is weak, he is strong. But the other reason I think made more clearly in this passage is that Paul is strong because he loves. Because he makes himself vulnerable. He allows himself to be “weak”. He says in v29, “Who is weak and I am not weak? Who is made to fall, and I am not indignant?” Paul let the Corinthians affect him so profoundly that he passed up an opportunity to evangelize in Troas because he was so anxious about how they would respond. And yet in this weakness, he was able to have the strength to do all those other things that he talks about before he gets to v29. He was able to have the strength to endure labors, imprisonments, beatings, being lashed and stoned, and shipwrecked and on and on.

So what is my own view of “strength” and “weakness”? When I think about myself as a Christian and even as a staff member, how do I evaluate myself? I often use “strengths” to evaluate how I am doing. Did I get a lot done? Am I a competent person in this way or that? Have I been given more and more responsibilities? Do people respect me? Have I had victory in my battle with sin? These are the types of questions I use, and it gives a window into what I think is important, or what makes me “strong” Christian. I view Christianity as another arena in which I need to achieve and do well in. I put the focus on me, and how much I can or cannot do.

But once again, Apostle Paul tells me something very different. The kinds of questions I should be asking myself are: Am I feeling weak because of someone else’s weakness or sin? Do I even know other people’s sins and am I grieving over them? Have I suffered on someone else’s behalf, or for the gospel? Have I tried to become less and draw less attention to myself, so that instead Christ can be revealed? Do I daily feel the pressure of anxiety because of people I love, and because of the people in my church? These are the questions that I need to ask myself because this is true strength. It is the strength of loving others, and becoming vulnerable. And that’s what Christ did on the cross. He came down in human likeness, and made himself like a servant rather than one who was to be served. And then he suffered and died on the cross for us. And in doing so, he defeated sin and death, and opened up the path for us to have eternal life.

Submitted by Sheri C. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

  • Why would the Corinthians have responded favorably to these false apostles who were boastful, oppressive, “[put] on airs,” and “[struck them] in the face?” 

These false apostles treated the Corinthians in the following ways: they treated the Corinthians as slaves, devouring and taking advantage of them, putting on airs, and striking them in the face. Instinctively, their conduct should have elicited a sense of problem, or led to questioning where their “authority” came from. However, the Corinthians actually responded favorably –or at least with tolerance- to these false apostles who treated them this way. They must have somehow associated such behavior with spiritual superiority and strength, as though the false apostles had such authority and presence that they were justified to do what they were doing. The Corinthians were probably impressed by the false apostles’ boasting. They boasted about their spiritual lineage, laying claim to the fact that they were Hebrews, Israelites, the offspring of Abraham. The probably sounded pretty legitimate.

  • Think about the notions of “strength” and “weakness” as it played out between the Corinthians and Apostle Paul.  What is the biblical view of strength?

When it came down to it, what the Corinthians seemed to value as “strength” in the false apostles was how they used their self-commended authority to do whatever they wanted, and they were pretty successful. They seemed strong because things were going well for them: they spoke with eloquence, they were well received by people, they were receiving money for their preaching, and they had their spiritual lineage in which they could take pride and boast. In contrast, in the Corinthians’ eyes, here was Apostle Paul who couldn’t speak with the same degree of eloquence, he was preaching the gospel “free of charge” (11:7), and he had suffered much in his ministry. The Corinthians saw this and considered him weak, especially in comparison to the false apostles. It’s clear that the Corinthians had a misguided view of what was considered “strength” and “weakness”. The false apostles seemed strong and authoritative on the surface, but what is revealed is that through their ministry, they were preaching a different gospel and people were being oppressed and taken advantage of. Their character proved to fall so short, though the Corinthians did not see this because they were so caught up in the “boast[s] according to the flesh”. The fruit of Apostle Paul’s ministry, on the other hand, was that the Gentiles were being saved, churches were being planted, and people were being discipled to follow Christ. Apostle Paul had not boasted in his own qualifications until this point, and that was only to prove a point regarding the folly of placing confidence in the accomplishments of the flesh. In chapter 4 verse 7, he says that we have the treasure of the gospel in jars of clay “to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us.” He attributes the work of his ministry to the Lord, not to himself as a broken and sinful man. In verse 30, he says, “If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness”. Why would he do this? Because behind the external weakness, there is something else, something deeper and worthy to boast of, and that is Christ Jesus.

  • When I interact with others, which attitude do I have—the one of Apostle Paul, or the one of the false teachers?

When I first graduated and started serving at our church, I had ungrounded confidence in myself that I had a pretty good idea of what ministry would be like. I thought that having lived in the dorms my senior year, leading a small group of some freshmen floormates, praying for them on a regular basis–I thought that the life of ministry would be pretty much that. I wanted to show my leaders that I could handle it and that I knew what I was doing. It’s laughable in retrospect, but honestly, that was my view. Of course after about a month, I realized how foolish I had been. However, that desire to prove myself still persisted. In the few years after that, in so many ways I wanted to be seen as a spiritual person, and so I would go through all sorts of hoops to maintain this image of myself. I would tell my leaders about the “good things” that I did while brushing under the rug anything that would make me look bad. With my peers, I would feel envious of one’s outgoing personality, how spiritual another one seemed, etc. If someone asked me a question, I would try to wrack my brain to think of some kind of good-sounding answer and if it was well received, then I would be proud of myself that I knew how to have these kind of fruitful conversations with my students. I didn’t seek guidance from others who were more knowledgeable or ask them very many questions because I thought that maybe they would look down on me for not knowing how to do that simple thing or what to do in a particular situation. I so much wanted to rely on my own strength and to be able to say, “I did it” and to earn people’s respect and acceptance.

As I grow older, I find that more and more, I have less confidence in myself and what I can do and boast of. I know my heart and I can more personally attest to the fact that there is nothing good in me. I know that I have been given a huge entrustment, and how vast are the far-reaching consequences of this ministry of reconciliation. Knowing that much is at stake–eternal life or death–I have grown to regard this with greater fear and trembling, and in light of this, I am much more hesitant to rely on my own sinful heart to carry out the calling. Also, as the gospel becomes sweeter and more amazing to me, the act of boasting in myself and what I can do feels like such a waste of time. This affects how I interact with others. With my leaders and peers, I can just openly share my struggles, my mistakes, my sinfulness without engaging in the tiresome mental gymnastics of wondering what they think about me. With the people I minister to, I try to minister to them using God’s word instead of trying to think of the “right answer.” This year ministry feels different in the sense that I just want to point people to the gospel–because it’s true, unchanging, and is always the right answer. That’s been my hope and prayer lately for the people I am ministering to that they would know the gospel more deeply.

 2 Corinthians 11:23-30

  • Reflect on all the ways in which Apostle Paul suffered in carrying out his ministry.

In verses 23-29, Apostle Paul lists out the spectrum of his sufferings, both physical and emotional, that he suffered and endured in his ministry. He was imprisoned, beaten to the point of near death, stoned, shipwrecked, in constant danger from Jews and Gentiles, danger from false apostles, he experienced thirst, hunger, lack of sleep, and the list goes on. And not only these physical sufferings, but he also endured the suffering of carrying the emotional burden of people ministry. He experienced anguish of heart, despair, grief, and righteous anger. He always thought about all the churches and kept people in his heart. Apostle Paul really was stretched in every capacity.

  • What might be the relationship between Apostle Paul’s amazing ability to endure hardships and what he says in vv. 28-29?

Apostle Paul experienced daily anxiety and a great sense of burden for churches. He refers to it in verse 28 as “daily pressure.”  Instead of being someone whose emotional ups and downs were dependent on the drama of his personal life, he was emotionally very affected by the spiritual state of his fellow brothers and sisters in the church. If they were weak, he felt weak; if they were engaging in sin, he felt righteous anger and indignation. He had a view of his identity as very connected with these people whom he considered his sons and daughters in the faith. I think his ability to endure hardships can be traced to this. He was very aware of who he was, his calling, and his responsibility/obligation to the churches. How could he not endure hardship for the sake of the gospel, when broken people were being led into sin? I’m sure this reality would have spurred him on to keep doing what he was doing, because spiritual battle is real.

 ·       How does Apostle Paul’s description of his “daily pressure” challenge a more idyllic notion of Christian life?

People could have an idyllic notion of Christian life, thinking that it’s just about you and God, that you just need to love God in your heart, that you don’t have to suffer all that much because God wants us to be at peace and be happy. Many Christians have this very peaceful view of Christian life. But Apostle Paul’s description of his “daily pressure” really challenges this view.   The words “daily pressure” alone might not quite capture the extent of the difficulties involved in Christian life and ministry, but given what we know about his ministry to the Corinthians thus far, we can see that it definitely was not easy.

 ·       What does Apostle Paul’s identification with the members of his churches tell me about the nature of love? 

One thing this tells me is that the nature of love is to allow oneself to be completely affected by another person or people. Apostle Paul indeed had opened wide his heart to the Corinthians because he had been so vulnerable with them–he anguished and regretted sending the severe letter, and then was overjoyed to hear of their repentance. He was not some distant leader figure who slapped them on the hand for doing something bad while maintaining his cool. This is totally contrary to the picture we get of Apostle Paul, who regularly experienced emotional heights and depths dependent upon the members of his churches. The kind of love he felt and communicated was one where he shared in their struggles and made their issues his own. Their ups and downs became his own. And it was a messy process–the Corinthians misunderstood him and judged him, he had to commend himself to them and clarify his intentions, etc. It wasn’t clean and tidy ministry that he was engaged in. Yet this too is another characteristic of love –willingness to take risks.

Personal Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for your word today. I pray that rather than boasting in my own flesh and what I can do, that I could claim that you are my strength above all things. I pray that I would not have a worldly notion of what is “strong” versus what is “weak,” but please help me to have a biblical understanding of how through weakness, your strength is displayed. Lord, I also pray that I could grow into a leader like Apostle Paul who loved the members of his churches to the point where he allowed himself to be thoroughly affected by them and how they were doing. As this is just one picture of love, I pray that I too could have this kind of heart of love towards people. Amen.

Submitted by Irene H. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 11:19-21

·       Why would the Corinthians have responded favorably to these false apostles who were boastful, oppressive, “[put] on airs,” and “[struck them] in the face?” 

From a worldly perspective and from the context of their cultural background the Corinthian church must have been used to the extraordinary level of confidence and arrogance being correlated with prestige and something to be respected. These people were said to have been great orators and even to charge a fee for the people to hear them speak. There was a sense of power that came along with that…a sense that the cost would correlate with the value of what they were presenting. So, even within the church they submitted to the popular cultures beliefs and translated the boastfulness, oppressiveness, and degradation as something/someone to follow.

It seems so strange, but in many ways it isn’t unlike the drama of being a teenager, where the confident, pretty and mean girls are the ones who are looked up to and the ones who carry all the power. Their power comes from their image, and so every teenager grows up wanting to be cool or popular. The “average” kids become easily fooled by their hype and willingly play into the power dynamic and end up looking up to these “popular” girls who are often oppressive and

Now, as a 20 something year old all of that teenage drama seems so foolish, but the reality is that even at this age we play into the same culture of power. It now manifests in what kind of car you drive, what kind of spouse you have, what kind of job or promotion you are able to achieve. Basically, the variables may have shifted a bit, but the game is the same. You look up to those who have this kind of power built by their image, even to the point where you are degrading yourself, because you have bought into the values.

For the Corinthians I think they were just in awe of the images of these false prophets in how powerful they appeared to be in…their boasts of their successes, their self-promotion, their worldly charisma, and their air of being above the average citizen. They were fooled into degrading themselves, as well as being blind to the truth, because they saw the strength and power of these false prophets, and want to have the same.

 ·       Think about the notions of “strength” and “weakness” as it played out between the Corinthians and Apostle Paul.  What is the biblical view of strength?

For the Corinthians their understanding of “strength” comes from the worldly successes and influence that people are able to manage for themselves. It was a strength to have talent and to use it successful to their advantage. Weakness for the Corinthians would be not claiming all your credentials, lacking talents or skills and ultimately not being able to gain any power for yourself. So, Apostle Paul ends up naming all his credential to humor them in their pursuit to follow the “strongest candidate” no matter whether they were aligned to the truth of the gospel or not. But more so than that, Apostle Paul begins to boast of his credentials of suffering for the gospel. His credentials are not built on superfluous things, it was built on his literal sweat, blood, and tears. He allowed himself to be vulnerable, submitted himself to suffering, and in many ways the world would view this as weakness. He didn’t fend for himself and so that makes him “weak,” but it was in Paul’s submission to vulnerability out of love for the gospel that gave him the strength to endure all of these things.

The biblical view of strength is that we don’t have any within ourselves. It is actually within our weakness that God provides the strength. And this is the reality of Apostle Paul’s life, it was in his vulnerability and suffering through imprisonments, beatings, and in danger in every way that he was his weakest, but it was because of his relationship with God and the gospel that he was able to have power enough to endure and persevere through these things. The biblical view of strength is that God has all of it, and he will willing to pour it into us as we obey in our weakness.

 ·       When I interact with others, which attitude do I have—the one of Apostle Paul, or the one of the false teachers?

When I interact with others, sadly I find that I frequent am just like the false teachers. I want to look competent and put together. I want to be viewed as a hard worker who is a contributor rather than a drain. It’s sad because I feel like it manifests in even in my ministry. I am supposed to be living vulnerably and with the constant reality that I am a wretch of a sinner, but frequently I am so preoccupied with trying to do things well and not drop any balls, that I forget that greatest reality in my life.

I have times of clarity where I am driven in desperation due to the burden of my own sins or the sins of those entrusted into my care. But the reality is that the mentality of the false teachers begins to creep back in. I’ve begun to recognize the yellow flags and red flags of when my attitude is shifting. Rather than continuing in my sense of urgency and desperation I start looking around. I start becoming consumed by the gaze of others upon my life and how well I am doing this or that. I feel more anxious around leaders, because I don’t want to slip up or fall back into the same sins over and over again. It is by God’s grace that I am now more aware of my red and yellow flags indicating to me that there is something wrong with my attitude, perspective, and heart. He stops me from continuing on in the motions, and in a timely way brings his words into my life. Just like this passage clarifying to me that I’ve once again shifted back to the attitude of the false teachers, being utterly caught up in image and performance. And when I am like this I don’t last very long. I can’t endure any kind of hardships because I feel utterly drained and sapped.

Interestingly enough it is at these points of realization that God brings me back to the attitude of Apostle Paul. He calls me to see the needs of others. He shows me that I am not competent enough, I do not have power enough, I am not wise enough, and yet He provides the strength to persevere. He invites me to the privilege of ministry despite my sins and weakness, and it is in obedience that I experience his strength and his provision. It is when I open wide my heart and bare the burden of others’ sins, it is when I get rejected for the Nth time, it is when I am at a loss as to the next steps, it is in these moments when I feel like I can no longer endure that He provides the needed strength and power. And so all I can do is praise a Heavenly Father who would be willing to use a fool like me, who would bring me back to His truth each time I become a false teacher again.

September 25, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (2 Corinthians 11)

Submitted by John C. from Gracepoint Berkeley Church

2 Corinthians 11:5-11

  • What was the reason the Corinthians considered Apostle Paul inferior?

The Corinthians considered Apostle Paul inferior because they thought he was “unskilled in speaking” (v6) based on the fact that he preached “God’s gospel to [them] free of charge” (v7).

  • What is shown about human nature from the fact that Apostle Paul’s humility (“humbling myself”) was regarded as weakness, and his preaching “free of charge” caused them to regard him and his gospel as somehow lesser?

There seems to have been a huge misunderstanding on the part of the Corinthians towards Apostle Paul and this gospel that he preached. They missed each other entirely. What Apostle Paul did out of humility—lowering himself out of a desire of wanting to exalting others—the Corinthians considered this to be because he actually is inferior. They saw his humility not as intentional and well thought out but rather consequential of because who he really is. But the truth of the matter is, Apostle Paul was very much intentionally in humbling himself before the Corinthians, in limiting himself, in sacrificing and foregoing the financial support that perhaps should have been due to him for the gospel that he preached. He intentionally did it because he didn’t want to “burden” them and ultimately because he loved the Corinthians (v9-11). It was all out of love. But the Corinthians didn’t see that. What they saw was that what was seen immediately, the message that Apostle Paul brought must be inferior or weak because it was free. To them, if a message is worthy and important, it cannot be free. So to the Corinthians, it didn’t even cross their mind that something actually intrinsically great in value such as the gospel was intentionally lowered than what it really is for the sake of others.

What does this show about human nature? It comes to show that when we see acts of humility, we judge it based more on what is immediately seen on the outside and externally rather than the internal motivation and intention behind it. Essentially it comes to show that we are shallow. We often fail to take the next step to see more behind what is on the cover. Had the Corinthians paused and saw what was actually happening, had they not stopped at the shallow level of understanding and judging things, and actually focused on the content of the message, it would have become clear to them if they had to place monetary value to the gospel message that was preached to them, it would be priceless. It would be worth more than anything else in this world, their view towards Apostle Paul would shift from inferior to praise for they would filled with indescribable gratitude and joy.

  • Are there people in my life whose humility and love I am misinterpreting, or failing to value?

There are many people in my life that this applies. Immediately the person who comes to my mind is my wife. Just the other day, I noticed her love for me that I failed to see and misinterpreted at first. Something that I noticed about her over the many months of being married to her is just her love for food. To throw away leftover food would be considered a crime to her and she would always pack the leftover food, even if it’s just the sauce and she would make sure there wouldn’t be a drip of leftover. There is an entire cabinet of 4 shelves just devoted to tupperware. The other day I noticed that when she was packing lunch for us, she used a container that is half the size of mine and on top of that, she didn’t fill her container up but left some room while mine was filled to the brim. This wasn’t the first time it was done, but this has always been the pattern where her lunch was probably half the size of mine. I don’t know why but it wasn’t until just the other day when it suddenly hit me how this act, although silly and small, is her way of lowering herself as an act of love for me for she wanted me to have more and she would have a lot less. Sure, I eat more than her, but when I saw how much she was packing for herself it really wasn’t that much. Then suddenly all these other thoughts started to flood my mind of all the love that she pours into just this simple meal of packing my lunch. There would be many nights when she would stay up to cook just so she can pack my lunch the next day, the refrigerator would be filled with food that I like versus what she likes almost at a ratio of 10 to 1, all the times she would go into extreme measures of packing the leftover food for lunch would be so that she knew and was thinking ahead of how she can use this leftover sauce to cook me something. Most of time, rather than appreciating all those times she saved leftovers, I would often express annoyance for saving something that will not be eaten later. Well, unbeknownst to me, it was really all for me that she’s been doing this for just so that I can have a good meal for lunch.

Another person that I’ve been misinterpreting is my mom. Back in high school, I would frequently stay at my friends place until 2 or 3am just hanging out even on school days. My mom would often call me around 10pm to come home by midnight and I would say yes but almost I never did it. She wouldn’t call again asking me why I’m not home around midnight but just let me do whatever I wanted. Almost 90% of the time I come back home way later than midnight, somehow coincidentally, at least that’s what I thought at the time, she would come out of her bedroom to get some water or go to the bathroom and just say a quick hello to me and go back to bed. But just the other day it really struck me that it wasn’t that the time I would come back home would be the same time as that of her getting water, but actually it was because she was up the whole time. In fact, most of the time, or almost all the time, she would never say anything like, I’ve been up until now, waiting for you, or I haven’t slept because of you. She didn’t say that because she wanted to give my space, she didn’t want to pressure me and make me feel bad in coming back home late, thinking that she was worried the whole time. I didn’t see what she did for me as love, her sacrifice was for me, but rather I just thought it was just mere coincidence.

Also, for my spiritual mentors in this church, I would misinterpret their love for me. There was a time when I there was a point I had to really confront and struggle through my pride and how I’ve been relating to people especially those who are older than me. I had this attitude of “I got everything under control” and I would always try to appear like I was this confident guy. It really got accentuated more as my mentors would entrust me various responsibilities. Whether it be being in charge of planning the itinerary of trips, organizing rides, leading small group times, etc. Well one day, I began to just feel like, I don’t think I really do deserve to be given these responsibilities as I just don’t feel qualified but so I finally confessed this to my mentors, just feeling like I’ve been fake, giving the impression that I have things under control when I actually didn’t, and often not listening to them carefully because of an attitude of arrogance. At this he replied, “I knew all along how you have been” and he told me, I didn’t think you would be spiritually, mentally, and emotionally handle this truth and that’s why I haven’t brought it up to you. At this, I really was shocked. All along, he knew how I have been and yet he didn’t say anything because he knew I wouldn’t be able to handle this truth. I saw how my leaders took on much frustration and emotional hurt because of me and yet, out of his love for me, out of his care that I would not be able to handle the truth, he didn’t confront me about it. In such ways I realized how I would misunderstand and not see the value of their humility in their life.

  • Are there ways in which I am failing to appreciate what is being offered to me as a gift (i.e., “free of charge”), while cherishing and paying (in money, time, effort) for things which are not as valuable?

When I think about something that I tend to take for granted and am definitely under appreciating is this community that I am a part of. I am currently in a church, a community of believers, who are all striving to living a bible abiding life, and more so, really trying to live out the vision creating the fellowship as seen in Acts 2:42-47. A community in which I’ve seen many people giving generously to those who are in need (2 Corinthians 8) and making every effort to strive for unity in the Spirit (Ephesians 4) by being like-minded and in harmony with one another (Romans 15). Just the other day, our church purchased a new building as we were outgrowing our old one. This new building is significantly larger in size than the older one and the entire church, from all the different ministries—college, joyland, impact, ecm, igsm, element—all gathered at this new building and we rolled up our sleeves and got our hands dirty, literally, to clean out this new building. We started from around 12:30 pm and many of us went until 7pm…there were some who even stayed until 9pm. It was very tiring, we all knew it was going to be tiring, but yet we all came together to do it, experiencing fellowship with one another through this. But really it didn’t have to be this way. Many times I would hear how precious this kind of community is especially from many Christians who are serving God alone whether it be at a different church or people oversees. They long for a such a community, they want to have fellow Christian peers, who are like-minded, who have the same passion and heart for ministry, to have partners who can spur one another on, those they can pray with and share vulnerably with, leaders who can mentor and guide them spiritually… when I pause and think about this, it is quite amazing that I get to be part of this. But frankly speaking, I do take a lot of the relationships that I have with many of the people here for granted. The opportunities are there when I can seize ways in which I can really seize and make the most of these precious relationships that I have, but most of the time, my laziness, selfishness, and just wanting to have my comfort and not spend any time or effort causes me to be passive about this. With my peers, I haven’t made much of an effort to continue to pray for them as some of them have been going through some difficult times, or just making the initiative to just ask them how they are doing. There was an opportunity the other day for me to swing by my peer’s place to say hi and hang out for bit as I had to pick up some items there. But rather than doing that, I picked up what I had to get and just took off minding my own business and not really making that effort to connect with them. With my leaders, those who have been placed by God (2 Corinthians 10) to build me up for me to mature to become more like Christ, well, it is because of their unconditional love and commitment to the covenantal relationship they have with me, that I can honestly say that I am where I am now spiritual. However, once again, I haven’t been seizing every opportunity to really learn from them, imitate them, desire to get wisdom from them, constantly wanting to know more ways I can be a better minister from them.

By not seizing what is more valuable which are these relationships in my life, I’ve been focusing more on preserving myself, my time, my energy. Is this not the things of this world that I am pursuing when I continue to preserve myself, “treasures on earth” that is very temporary and fleeting. Rather what is more valuable, eternally more valuable, are the things that are everlasting, the “treasures in heaven” which is what I ought to continue to appreciate and pursue (Matthew 6:19-20). That which is eternal is God and people and this is what I ought to appreciate for all my life. As a Christian, this is the daily battle that I go through which is always continuing to deny my flesh, to deny the desires of wanting to focus my time and energy on the the now, and shifting my perspective towards what is eternal.